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This words " forever doesnt meant for people, but it just meant for memories. "

Hits me hard.

I can feel it.

That words were meant for me.

2021.

Have been the most saddest year for me.

So many happens.

So many lose.

I dont hope much for 2022.

I just hope.

I can forget everything.

I can forget the memories.

Memories that hurt me so much.

We make memories so that we can remembered every of our good moments forever.

Yes.

I admit. Good memories are made for us to remembered.

But.

But this time.

Idk what to do with this memories.

The memories.

Especially the good one.

What can I do with them.

I lose us.

I lose our friendship.

How can I accept the fact that not everything are meant to be fixed.

Tell me,

Tell me you hate me,

Hurt me,

And break our friendship.

So that I can hate you.

I can hate us.

And I can let us go,

I can accept the fact we are became strangers. Now.

This pain,

How can I remove them?

Why did Im being the one who missess the most,

Meanwhile they were so happy with their new friends,

This is unfair.

How can I stop this?

How can I stop my hope for our friendship to be fixed?

How can—

They said " you look so happy"

They said,

All they dont know is Im so sad,

Aren't they know its all lies?

Mereka nampak,

Aku tak kesah langsung pasal our group,

Sedangkan,

aku sentiasa harap, our group is forever.

Thankyou for those memories,

Thankyou.

Thankyou so much.

I will never forget us.

I will never.

Sometimes.

I just wonder—we are bestfriends,

We showed our loved to each other in a different ways,

But, I wonder

How can we love each other but at the same time,

We hurt each other,

How can I make this friendship stay when—

All we do is just hurting each other?

Tell me,

How can I save this friendship forever?

How can?

Tell me.

Im dissapointed,

I always thought that one day,

We would became one again,

We can fix our friendship again,

Tapi bila dah macam ini,

All i think in my mind just,

This friendship—we cant fix it.

Our frienship is—broken.

I'm not crying.

No Im not.

Thats why—

We cant broke something that are already broken,

We cant,

Just like this friendship,

And I chose to stay away.

But why—

Bila aku orang pertama yang angkat kaki dulu,

Bila aku orang pertama yang beredar dulu,

Kenapa—

Kenapa aku, orang pertama yang sakit sehingga kini?

Why Im being the one in pain whenever I saw our pic?

Why?