Fat~Alpha~2

12

My body came over a freezing cold sensation felt like everything around me was spinning like I couldn't move my body. I felt paralyzed like I couldn't do anything hopeless. I wanted to cry I wanted to wake up but I didn't know if I was asleep or awake. Everything is blurry and dark. They said dying in your sleep is supposed to be peaceful. This is awful I don't wanna die I don't know. What is wrong with me it's crazy I know but I would love Tyler to bere to sweet me off my feet. Tyler... Why was I such a hitch I just don't know anymore. The only guy that has actually protected me is probably gone . Maybe that kiss was nothing but if there's one thing I wanna do is say sorry Tyler. Tyler I had no right not to give you a chance hope you'll forgive me again. Lauren where I could begin, you've been their since day 1, while everyone hated me and treated me wrong you stood up for me . I love you millions for that and never stop. In my heart I hope they know I care, Mom... I know I was a disappointment I failed you but I love you. Dad I love you I just really love you and don't forget that. I mentally slap myself confronting my feelings in my head isn't gonna get me no where. I think Mayne being miserable and wanting to end my life wasn't the best idea but pain leads you into dangerous situation. I wish I could go back and start all over and maybe change everything with Tyler. I start shaking uncontrollably my eye's shoot open I was in school cold steel room. You could tell I was sweating the dream was so painful and real. I try not to cry I need to find a way out. I need to stay strong if I wanna survive. I take in my surroundings and look for anything familiar. I crawl on my knees to find a path. The cold sensation tingle on my knee caps. I felt my hand go over something sharp I grasp it. I crawl on the damp steal room. I could hear the clicking as I pass. I felt a gate way box, I took the sharp object and used its side to move the hinges. The tin plate pops and I gently remove it and climb in to small comformed area. I put the tin plate over the top my head. I let out my muffled cries and sniffle. "Tyler I know you won't hear me but thank you for everything. " I cried I lay my head to the side to calm myself. A loud thud sound is made I assumed it was a door. My breathing hitched the foot steps roamed. I could tell their was more than 1 person to much movement. I go frozen as they come closer. "Where the hell is she, can't disappear from thin air." The stranger roared he through things around the room. I cry softly into my arm not wanting to make a sound. "Malaki sir they check surveillance she didn't leave this room." "Lies bull sh*t lies we have a mole in our premesis I make sure to find out, send out a warning she's out she needs to be found." He yelled. He moves swiftly away, I could feel the other person still their. It felt like ages before I could move. He finally pass he shuts the door witha thud and I release myself. I sit and whisper "help".