Fat~Alpha~2

The words Fat, Whore, Bitch all of them actual are so bleak. I have been hearing those words since I was 9. My name is Willow Garcia I'm 5'5 medium length brownish gold hair.I have hazel nut brown eyes. Sound pretty right oh darling I'm not done yet. I wear a size 24 in pants and I have stretch marks all over. I have broad shoulders and chubby cheeks. Did I change your opinion yet? I'm 15 years old and I weigh 237 pounds. Well that was 2 months ago so who knows. I've always been that chubby girl in back of the classroom. I was either too tall too wide . I'm not going to lie I love food very much. I don't put too much blame on myself. I grew up around a family who ate alot. But here's the thing they had the figure I didn't. They had the big ass wide hips and nice perky boobs. I'm just round sometimes I feel uncomfortable. I looked around the bedroom and saw bright lights coming from the window. I stumble to my feet and maneuvered my way to the window. I look up to dark blue sky . They say if you wish upon a star your dreams will come true. Closing my eyes tightly I whisper "I want someone to love me...." I let out a deep breath and looked up. I swayed myself to bed and laid their. I just kept staring until my eyes got real heavy.

Oh, glazed eyes, empty hearts

Buying happy from shopping carts

Nothing but time to kill

Sipping life from bottles

Tight skin, bodyguards

Gucci down the boulevard

Cocaine, dollar bills

And My happy little pill take me away.

I woke up to the sweet mello voice of troye sivan. I had a tiny smile on my face the beautiful sunset shone on my face. I sat myself up and picked out my outfit. I decided on white shirt why spattered spots and dark black fitted jeans. I through my thick hair in pony tail. I smelled a strong aroma of spam on the skillet. I rushed down the stairs seeing eggs spam waffles on a plate. I heard my mothers beautiful angelic voice sing a sweet tune. I jumped in the chair gobbling up my food. Tasting the sweet syrup on my tounge. My mom gives me a disappointed look. I felt my insides churn with sadness. I've always had this dream that afted puberty all these guys would be down on ther knees to love me. I pushed the thought out my head and got ready to leave. I snuck oatmeal cookies in my pocket and tried to speed walk out the house. I walked until I got to the dinghy looking pole. I hummed while I waited for the bus. I saw the pale yellow bus make its way to me and made a huge halt. The doors swung open. The steps creaked while I shifted my weight on each motion. The bus went silent as I moved side to side trying to find a seat. Every time I saw an open "sorry seat taken" or "there's probably isn't any room uhh yeah" I saw this cute boy jump i terro trying to be funny. I heard the light giggles in the background. There was a seat open but he was aleep. I sat down quietly not to wake him. I see Monica in front of me she's a quiet girl. I decided to ask her.

"Monica! I whisper shouted'
Yes
Who's he, she had a grin on her face. That's tyler boice he trespass in his father's dealership and sold most of his product. Now his father said he has to find his own way to school.
Thank you
She just noded.

We got to school and the classes were going by pretty fast until 8th period. Kiara just had to say it.
"Mrs. Golithonin willow body is in my wat and I can't see." The class erupted with laughter. Maybe if you lost some weght fat ass I can see the board". My eyes started to water and I just knew she was right. I'm fat and not beautiful.