My surname

Few words after my name

The man called me by my name, I said 'I am'.

The man called me when I was child.
Society recognized me from the family I belonged.
I said "I am".
In my birth, I heard the man asking me to bear few words after my name,
l said its fine.
Reciting those few words after my name, I grew up.
Those words after my name circled me inside a blend of culture, tradition, identity and dignity.
I again saw the man, this time not in a person, but in papers, where I could see those words,
He asked me to bear in my birth.

I thought what importance does those few words after my name holds
In curious state of mind I moved on.

My knowledge unlocked me towards the world, outside the circle I was in.

I was hurry to graduate, to explore the deapthness of enlightment, in a intrest to work, to raise the standard of living.

Finally I could see my dream coming true, I choose to educate myself, educating the rest.

In a great rush to impart the bunch of knowledge present in my brain, to the rest of the brain present in the world.

I wanted to share every inch of knowledge I posses and empty my mind before I die.

I wanted to gift my knowledge to the world.
At last it would had been a gift to the creator for creating me.

I went on, on and on in search of wisdom, in search of work, that could allow me to teach the things I have learned.

Days went by, months turned into years, empty pocket, heart full of emotions, and mind dragging me towards violence.

It finally made me to kill my dreams, while I was alive.
Still I say those few words after my name,to every person I meet, everyday and everywhere.

My dreams never came true, I could never teach the world, the meaning of humanity and equality.

But today I am in position to clearly teach the world what meaning the few words after my name holds.

As the few alphabets after my name is not just words to complete my name and identity.

It is the criteria of competing with the same meaning but with different words.

Those few words are the restriction and the boundaries I am not supposed to cross.

The few words after my name is the answer to the dreams, I should have knitted, when the man asked me to bear it in my birth day.

It was the future, of who I would become, how I would be loved and accepted in the society and where I would go.

Finally how much I will be earning to sustain my dreams.

The few words after my name, was not the answer to the happiness I would feel while saying it aloud to the world
It was the basis on which I could be judged, dignified, loved, hated and dragged into the similar circle one day.

The few words after my name was the criteria on which my knowledge, my desire, my education and also my qualification was to be evaluated, which defined how much I can earn, rather how much I could learn.

So, today when somebody asks me what is your SURNAME?

I reply saying "its just a few words after my name, which the man gave me in my birth" because I don't want to bear it anymore.
My surname has become like the tide, which blows my dream away.

My surname which is just few alphabets after my name, defines who and what I am today.

It was not just a few words for the man who asked me to bear it in my Birth, it was my destiny, my status and fate which I could posses someday in future.

So when somebody ask me what my dreams are today?
I say "I want to erase the few words after my name, in the papers which holds my identity" and tell the world I want to be judged on the basis of knowledge and character I posses rather on the basis of Few Words my name afterwards posses.