Chemistry (Completed)

Chapter 5 Her

Chapter 5,
Her,

Author: Above is a picture of my other book: The Girl and Guy In Ballet Shoes, please check it out thanks.

I don't know what angle he was trying to reach with me but I wasn't happy that he was with another girl I wasn't sure if he was with her but under the picture in the comments and said: Oh my god you'r so cute together!  With multiple people saying that.

He messaged me again. It popped up at the top of my screen as a banner I read what I could and saw I'm sorry. I didn't even care but I hate leaving people there waiting for an answer so I opened up the message and loaded the text bar and typed away. Many errors because when I want to get a point across I type fast and constantly miss the keys. As I typed letter for letter my nails hit the screen causing a tap sound.

Me: Look I saw the picture of you and her. I don't want anything to do with you okay? Leave me alone! Clearly she's prettier then me, and why do you like me. I'm the outcast the loser. You cool and popular! What do you want with me is this like your little science project or something?

My hear sank below my brain of sadness. A light tear fell below my sighing. Am I a project? I questioned and questioned all night waiting for an answer, I was whipped on him attached, glued. I would send emoticons of sad faces trying to get him to answer and I'm sure it was killing him as mush as me. I grabbed my bests and plugged them in and typed in my password: deanbae.

I then went to my free music downloads and activated the song Best Mistake by Ariana Grande. I blasted the volume and pulled my sleeves far past my fingers and wiped my nose. A second tear sunk below my cheek bone. I liked the feeling of the cold against my sorrows. I wasn't sure what was going on or where he went. I kept thinking if I was a project to him. Was it all a joke for science? I now hate science. I turned my screen on and put the song on repeat.  In the song she says 'he was the best mistake she ever made'. Was Dean my mistake? Was he a good mistake or bad? To many questions, I give up. I opened wattpad and started making a new book, I called it The Good Girl Bad Girl Chronicles. It was about me and being good but bad, I didn't want to tell anybody it was about me but it's time I live a little. I started voice talking so I wouldn't have to type word for word, basically I was blogging, in a way.

It's late I didn't realize that I was in my room in deep sorrow crying for many hours, im going down stairs in fright, I reach and flip the light switch. The light illuminates half the kitchen but it's good enough. My parents are asleep in their room. I'm reaching for the nob to the cubboard and it creeks open slowly. There's vodka, black velvet, whiskey and some margarita mix. I want whisky, it smells really good. I'm taking the bottle with me right now. I quickly and stealthy close the cabinet and go. I'm now in my room and I'm shaking at my own first time at age 14. Isn't this stuff worse than smoking? I don't care I can live I mean Yolo right? If that's what they say. I'm opining the bottke and it's a piece of cake, there's about three quarters left. I don't need my parents noticing so after I drink I'll replace it with water to make it seem like it was untouched. Here we go.

I turned my camera recorder on and proper it on my wall. I grabbed the bottle and pulled it up to my face with fear, hesitating in the moment of crime. Till my phone vibrates while in my pants pocket. It was Dean.

Him: Lisa, that was my sister.

As soon as I read that I felt do stupid, I was about to intoxicate my self over a guys sister and the dumb abbreviation for you only live once.

I opened wattpad and after hesitated with my finger hovering over the delete button. I started thinking to my self taking off my beats. I need to be happy, I then relaxed the muscle holding my finger from not clicking the delete button and watched the book dissappear. I turned off my phone and set my alarm clock. I sat on my bed and looked at my vanity and saw the note he gave me with the volcano and hearts on it. He does love me. I whispered to my self.

I then grabbed my teddy bear and lied down and thought about him and I together snuggling at the park. I smiled and fell asleep afterwards.

"Hi Lisa! Tap...tap...tap...tap...tap"

"Huh!"

*tapping noise.*

I got up and checked the clock it read 2:29, I then went over by the window and saw Dean, he had a box in his hands and started climbing the tree.

"Hey." He announced quite loudly.

"Are you crazy it's like two in the morning!" I whispered under my breth.

"Crazy enough for you." He smiled.

I half smiled at the thought of how stupid yet thoughtful his remark was.

"What do you want Dean?" My eyes sunk down in the need of sleep. I kept them open for the time being.

"Take this and keep it between us, I have to go I love you by." He jumped out and climbed down the tree like spiderman.

My eye lids were no longer heavy, they were wide open. I opened the box and saw-