Creep ✔

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Jake and I were discharged from the hospital in less than two weeks. Mrs. Garber and Asphalto tried to make the situation brighter but because of what happened, we never yearn to hope for something in this world.

I had a shot on my back and they said, I luckily survived from all the beatings and punches from Owen and his subordinates. I was hit by a metal bat many times, and I am pretty sure it was enough to erase me out here. But when I thought that I would finally see another tint of blue sky... the disappearance of my name and my inherited reputation would die along with me in oblivion... at the end, there's no place for me. I'm more than an outcast. Even the gates of heaven or hell would not let me in. Why do I have to exist if I'm not wanted? Why can't I find any answers for that?

"Why don't we go shopping on the weekends? What do you think? Since Jax had a new haircut, I think he should get rid of his all-black look! And Jake should also change his fashion taste." Asphalto yelled in excitement.

And I've always been in the dark since I was a kid. I dreamed of seeing the light with nothing covering my face and wondered what does it feel like. But now my hair was cut clean, with nothing covering my eyes, the world looks so brighter for me but when I have to look myself in the mirror, in the surface of the water, and the eyes of other people, I'm the only one greyed out. I just try to avoid as much as possible, and lower my head down and close my ears, pretending that I'm dead when in fact I can still feel moist in my hands.

I have a lot of questions going inside my mind but I haven't got any answer since then. And I don't know where else to look. So I'm tired now and no one has dared to take me away. I thought dying was easy because you have to feel your whole body in a painful state, your mind being dizzy and your heart suffocating for once in the ending but... finding ways to die is the hardest part.

The blue sky is bright for me. My long hair was gone. Everyone can experience different emotions in their life whilst I can't define mine. I'm the son of the most wanted criminal in the region, my mother was supposed to take care of me but she sexually abused me, and between those experiences, I didn't feel anything except the infinite remorse mixed with hate and guilt towards myself.

"That's a great idea! Let's do that on weekends, what do you think?" and when none of us is responding, she called us by our names, "Jake? Jaxus?"

Jake confronted them, he was silent all the time, and ever since we woke up, we didn't even have a conversation. We don't know if we are glad to come here together, we are supposed to leave this world but we don't know why we come back here. Wasn't that bullet not enough to kill me? Why did Jake always experience near-death experiences and none of those finally had taken him away?

I think that Owen Price was the mean guy that could help me get through this... but it wasn't enough. I don't know where he is, I also don't know if he got Angela, more, I don't even know if that was over. Why was everything isn't over yet?

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"Did Olivia try to kill me?" he asked.