Just You and Me

3. I would never want to leave you

A friend.

I couldn't stop thinking about it the rest of the day.

When I was a kid I had some friends, but as I grew up I realized they weren't really friends. I just kinda followed them around, they never really cared for me.

No one cared for me. Not my friends, not my mom, no one.

There was no one to be alive for. I did absolutely nothing for anyone.

My extince was pointless. Everything would be the same whether I was here or not.

But if Semi is my friend now. Now there is someone. Someone who does care about me, and who's life would be effected if I wasn't here.

I now have a reason to be here.

It's him.

Semi Eita is that reason.

He's the reason I'm alive right now, because he cares about me, he makes me feel things, he's everything.

I'm so glad I met him.

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For the rest of the day me and Semi talked mostly about him, since there wasn't much about me to say.

The only thing I really told him about me was a cat I had. I really loved her, but then she died. Her name was biscuit, and she was best cat ever. She made everything so much better. I cried for days when she died.

Semi works at a bar as a bartender, which explained how he was able to keep talking a lot. He explains that he doesn't exactly love it, but he definitely doesn't hate it. One of the worst parts in his opinion is having to deal with people who think their above everyone else, and also the cleaning.

Other then that he loves it though.

Semi also talked about the guy he had a weird thing with. It was one of his old friends, they had a friends with benefits kind of thing going on, and his name was Tendou. But after he got a girlfriend, they had to stop of course. They were still friends, but eventually according to Semi, his girlfriend made him quit talking to everybody really.

He tried to talk to him about it, but Tendou didn't listen.

After he talked some more it started getting late and he led me to his room. It was a bit more messy then the rest of the house, proving to me that Semi doesn't like cleaning much.

I looked around the room and saw mostly pictures of him and his sister. There was also a Pierce the Veil poster hung up on the wall, and guitar in the corner of the room.

"Sooooo." Semi started patting a spot next to him on his bed.

I walked over and sat next to him pulling my knees to my chest.

"Do you want to talk about it?" He asked wrapping his arm around my shoulder.

I really loved him putting his arm around me.

He cares about me so much.

"My dad died when I was 10. My mom was sad at first, but after a few months she was really mad about it. At the time I didn't understand why, but when she started drinking it became obvious. She would yell at me calling me a burden, a disappointment, everything. She did everything she could to make me feel miserable so quote, 'You understand how I feel.' She hated me." I paused as I felt Semi wipe away my tears.

I was crying, I was sad. I haven't felt anything like this in a long time.

"So when I was 13 she just...left. She drove me into another town, here, and left me."

"So you were on your own?" He asked and I just nodded.

He gave a sad look before he hugged me.

"S-So I was alone. A-And I had no one. No one at all. I was a-alone."

"Your not alone anymore...you have me." He said pulling away so I could look at him in the eye. He smiled at me and wiped my tears again and I couldn't help but smile back at him and nod.

I have you Semi.

"Thank you."

"No reason to thank me. I care about you Shirabu. I really do. I want you here. I'm someone to live for."

"You really are." I muttered and he smiled before he sighed.

"And I'm sure you'll find more as you continue on. I know it." He added.

I didn't really think I needed anybody else. Semi is absolutely perfect.

"So...you wanted to know about me right?"

I slowly nodded as he sighed and thought for a minute.

"My mom died protecting my sister, because wandered off in the road. My dad didn't take it well and started neglecting her. That happened when I was 12, so I had to start taking care of her. And then I found out he was hitting her when I wasn't around. I wanted to fucking kill him. As soon as I was old enough to move out I took her with me. But for a while I kinda started panicking. I didn't think we would make it to be honest. It got to a point so bad that I wanted to...I can't believe I even thought about it."

I hugged him and he just laughed nervously.
"It's alright. It got better. That's why I want to prove to you it gets better." He said pulling away and looking at me again.

He was right. It is getting better. I have a reason, and it's right in front of me.

"Semi I'm really glad I met you."

"Me too Shirabu." He said hugging me for the 3rd time that night. I just smiled back at him.

He makes me feel so many things I love it.

"Semi can you promise you won't leave me?"

"Of course. I would never want to leave you."