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QUINN'S POV

It's only been a week since we last spoke but for me it feels like several months. I miss her so much. I want her more than a friend but she's married shit, how could I think for a second that she could belong to me?

In fact, Brittany called me yesterday to tell me that my ex-girlfriend was back here in Oregon. I hate that girl. She dares to leave me without giving me an explanation and then she shows up at my birthday party?
Emily made me discover my sexuality, before her, I was attracted to men. It was for her that I left Finn in high school. But when she got a scholarship to a big swim school, she dropped me like a hot potato. And then I went back into Finn's arms. As far as I know, she is now a very strong swimmer and despite our cold weather I am happy for her because this is what she always wanted to do. But then, I don't see why she keeps coming here when it's such a tiny little town. Rich people don't belong here, if I were rich I would have left to live in Paris a long time ago. My parents are of course, so I could go with their money, but I still have some dignity. I know her mother still lives here but I don't understand why she stays here, being widowed and having her only daughter living in another state.

I wrote several texts to Santana but when I sent them, I didn't do it. I deleted the message and turned off my phone. In the hallways of the high school, I still see Marcos and feel him watching me out of the corner of his eye. I hope that things with his mother are getting better and better since the game. And I also hope that her sister-in-law has gone home because when she told me they were coming, the brunette was really distraught.

The school bell interrupted my thoughts. Luckily I finished early today, it's noon and I'm going home to rest. Some young people came to see me but it wasn't much and it was better because they don't have a big problem and I couldn't help them because my thoughts were only focused on Santana.

I closed my office door and walked to the parking lot and got into my car. I took a deep breath and drove home.

Without realizing it, I passed the coffee shop where I used to go at lunchtime with Santana. I miss it. This is where we got to know each other and I still want to get to know her. This woman haunts me. But she didn't reply to my last message asking if we were still friends so I guess that says a lot about our relationship. I really need to change my ideas because after all, we are nothing.

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Britt: Hey Hey Hey cousin! Would you like to come over for dinner tonight? There will be Blaine and his new boyfriend 🤗🤗😍🥰 Oh and Mike will make us a sushi special!! 🍣

Brittany's message brought me out of my trance. I'm currently watching a horror movie, I don't know why because I normally hate it. I prefer romantic comedies but they make me think of... Santana and now I'm thinking about her again. This serial killer had been on my mind for quite some time. I'm tired of it.

Q: Hey Hey Britt, I will be there with pleasure. I didn't know Blaine had a new boyfriend??🤨

So he's been hiding this from me for how long? He's supposed to be my best friend but he won't tell me he has a boyfriend? After all, I don't blame him because I didn't tell him about me and Santana kissing. He knows that for our first, the one of my birthday. He probably suspects something but our history to her and me is nothing more so I do not see the point of talking about it if it does not make sense.

Britt: Oops🤭 Please forget what I just told you. Sugar is bringing someone too!! I'll be waiting for you at 7:30!!😘

She made a mistake. Maybe he wanted to surprise me? Let's pretend I don't know anything and we'll see everything tonight. It is currently 5:40 pm and my movie will be over in thirty minutes. I have time, I will finish it quietly. I really hope that this evening will change my mind and that I will not think about this beautiful latina...

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I just arrived at Britt and Mike's. It smells great, I can't wait to try his food, I know he's not doing badly. Britt on the other hand... Cooking is not her strong point. I remember when we made cakes as teenagers, she always burned at least one thing but I always hid her nonsense with a nice decoration. When my uncle would come home from work and taste them, Britt and I would laugh our asses off because he would eat them just to please us, but his face was laughable.

"Quinn!" My best friend got up from the couch and came to hug me, which I did not refuse. "I missed you. When was the last time we called each other? At least two weeks ago!" I smile at that. Here is someone who actually cares about me. I love Blaine with all my heart, even though he didn't tell me about his boyfriend. Boyfriend, by the way, who got up and walked towards us. I broke away from the dark-haired man's arms and looked at the man in front of me. At first sight, he looks rather smart and full of joy of living.

"Hi, I'm Kurt." I took him in my arms and introduced myself.

"I'm Quinn." He smiled at me and Mike, who had just opened the door for me, went back to his work in the kitchen. I said hello to Tina and finally Brittany who arrived in her turn.

"Quinnie!!!" She jumps into my arms. She hugged me tightly, as did I. This girl is like my sister. "Sit down, I'll get some drinks." She tells us.

"I'll help you." Tina tells her as she joins her in the kitchen.

"So...how long have you two been together?" I asked as I tried my hand at a chair around the table. Blaine looked at me a little shocked at my question while Kurt blushed.

"Britt told you I guess...?" My best friend asked me, a little embarrassed.

"Yes. I'm genuinely happy for you two but I wish I had heard it from you." He puts his hand on my shoulder and smiles sadly. "It's always been complicated between Kurt and me." He looked at his boyfriend. "We met six months ago when I went to New York to a Broadway show. So I invited him out for a drink one night and it went where it went... But he already had a boyfriend at that point." He explained their misadventures to me, rather cute I might add. "I didn't want to tell you because to be honest," He looked at me and turned to his boyfriend. "I didn't know if it was serious between you and me baby... So I didn't want to worry you Quinn." So his story is similar to mine. He thought that with Kurt it was just a game, that it was nothing serious for the person in front of him. And it's the same on my side.

"We got together a month ago. I fell in love with him the first time I saw him, and it wasn't just a crush. Unfortunately, I realized it late but not too late because here we are now."

"Even though it's only been a month, I feel like it's been several because I've never been happier than I am with you." They are so cute together.

"I wish I could be like that with Santana..."

"Santana, the one you kissed on your birthday?" Blaine asks me- Damn, did I really say that out loud? I blushed and hid my face. "This girl is married Quinn." The doorbell rang and Mike went to open the door. "You kissed her just because you saw-" He stopped and looked at the entrance to the room. I turned around and my heart rattled. How...how could she just show up there? She has no right, not after what she did to me. I know I have to move on and I have moved on. I mean I think, I hope but when I see her again I feel that everything comes back. No, that's not possible. "...Emily."

Maybe I was attracted to Santana because she looks a lot like Emily.