Milly a sweet and innocent girl, where she passed enchanted people with her beauty and kindness. Her childhood was very difficult, she suffered psychological abuse from her own mother, a father who was an alcoholic and whenever he was drunk he took...
Alone, with my thoughts tormenting me and no answers. It's been three months since I've heard from Matheus, Olivia and Max. They just disappeared and didn't give me any answers!
None of the security guards at my feet give me an explanation. It's always the same words: "I can't say anything". It makes me so frustrated that I cry with rage!
After that day I had to travel to another country. It was so scary when the plane started to take off, I remember crying a lot and the security guards just looked at my despair and said absolutely nothing. My anxiety attacks are constantly present, sometimes I wake up at dawn feeling very short of breath and shivering a lot. It's so scary, I feel abandoned and I can't even get out of bed sometimes.
Before, I found people who couldn't even get out of bed or do simple things like brush their teeth. My hair has fallen out, everything I eat ends up vomiting, I can't take a shower and sometimes I don't even have the strength to get my pacifier from the closet. This makes me regress a lot, that is, sometimes I wake up hurt, burnt, from just becoming a baby and not having anyone to take care of or do my breast.
I've tried calling, texting, even letters, but none of them respond. Sometimes I find myself looking at the pictures I took with my cell phone, it's even more painful to see Olivia smiling while making my bottle, Dad putting me on his lap and even Max irritating me. I never thought I'd say that, but I miss your pet peeves.
- Milly, you need to get up! - Nick appeared in my room. He even approached a lot but didn't open his mouth to explain anything to me. This idiot comes here twice a week, checks my food and sees if I'm missing anything.
- I don't want... - I replied against my pacifier. I was clinging to a teddy bear I had in my room when I arrived and wrapped in a purple sheet. I felt incredibly tired, even though I hadn't done a damn thing these past few days.
- You don't have what you want. You have 15 minutes to get up, shower and get ready. I have to take you sunbathing and seeing new people. You won't be locked in this room until your death. - He opened the window and my eyes burned from the sun that lit up my dark room.
- Ah, how insufferable you are! - I got up muttering and heard his low laugh. Nick walked to the closet and sat on the bed swinging my feet that didn't touch the floor.
-And you turned into a bat to stay locked in this room all day?!-He spoke a little louder so I could hear.
- YES!- I yelled and I heard him cursing me with indecipherable names. I got out of bed again and walked slowly towards the bathroom. He wasn't in the mood for anything, but he knew Nick wouldn't give up anytime soon.
I took off my clothes calmly and went into the shower, turning on the shower in the cold water. I took a deep breath when the water touched my hot skin, it had been a while since I felt it. I washed my hair with great effort, I finished my bath wrapping myself in the towel and brushed my teeth, I left the bathroom and the annoying was no longer in the place, I put on my clothes and combed my hair leaving it wet and loose. I'm not in the mood for makeup or doing something too exaggerated. I just put on my perfume and left the room heading towards the living room.
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- Much better! - He said taking his car key. Nick was a nice person, but at times annoying. It was funny when he saw me using a pacifier for the first time, he almost screamed thinking I was cute and kept squeezing my cheeks.
- Where are we going!- I asked as we walked towards the house's garage. The house I was "forced" to live in was quite big, even bigger than Matheus's other house! It has five bedrooms, several bathrooms, a library, a movie theater, a huge kitchen, and my bedroom that I decorated myself. In the first few months I received several orders for new baby bottles, pacifiers, clothes and some decorations for my room. I knew it was him, and what made me extremely sad was knowing that he still took care of me, even far away.
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- I'll take you for a walk in a park, let's go shopping and eat out! It's going to be fun." A smile played on his lips as we got in the car and put on the seat belt.
I wouldn't say I don't want to go. Nick tries every way he can to make me smile, he even clowns around, and most of the time it works. He supported me in many things I needed, even he listened to my outbursts without saying anything and I'm grateful for that. I know he's just doing his job of taking care of me, but I can tell he's a great friend to me.
-Be yourself and don't be ashamed!-He warned and I nodded in agreement with his speech.
I hope one day to have an explanation for all this and end the mess my heart is in.
