My baby

Chapter 17

Milly Smith

- I'll go quickly to that store, wait for me here! - Nick asked and then walked away towards the store that were right next to the park where we were.

She was sitting on a bench watching couples picnicking, children and other women talking to their babies in their laps. Everyone smiled, as if problems didn't exist and everything was fine.

I looked at the sky sighing heavily. I felt lonely, it's like I've been abandoned! Did they get away because of my mistake? Got tired of me? Am I that weird? I just wanted answers right now.

My life was great with them, I felt happy after a long time, but it seems that something had to go wrong...

I looked around feeling like I was being watched. I didn't find anything, just a few security guards who had been trying to disguise the fact that they weren't watching me. Of course Nick had to put these men in black on my tail! They always wear a black suit and have a strange device in their ear. They never talk to me, the most they do is carry the groceries or help me pick something I can't reach without having a word if you want.

- Can we go to the shopping now?- I heard his voice behind me. I got up trying to get strength from the universe and we headed towards the car again. Those men in black quickly got into an all-dark black car and started following us. I gave a low chuckle when I realized he still cared about me...I think.

Never again, never in my life will I go shopping with Nick I've lost count of how many shoes he bought me, hair products, bags, jewelry, he loved buying me a teething ring and I even laughed. I bought some romance books. He pays for everything with an unlimited black card!

- I can't take it anymore! - I said, sitting in the chair I found in the store. Nick decided to enter the toy store and is worse than me! I love toy stores, but now I just want to sleep and drink my bottle.

- Have I told you you're insufferable?- he replied and stuck my tongue out at the guy holding a huge teddy bear. How am I going to load this? Compassion!

After a little argument he went to pay and we finally went home. My legs were sore from so much walking, this time indoors only made me sedentary. I looked at the car window and without allowing it, a single tear ran down my cheek. I just wanted that warm hug Olivia gave me, I wanted Max to make those boring jokes! I wanted daddy's lap, his smell good and so delicious. I just wanted them with me again...

- When it's 2:30 pm I want you dressed! Wear that dress I bought, let your hair down and wear the jewelry. No use of your perfumes, use strawberry moisturizer.- he spoke quickly, scaring me. I was so lost in my thoughts that I forgot he was by my side.

- I won't go out again! I'm tired, I want to sleep. - I replied shaking my hands in denial. Never will I go out with this shopping freak again!

- Did I ask? No. You'll be very pretty and nothing to complain about. I'm tired of seeing you tucked away inside that room, don't you have what to do with your life, girl?- he said jokingly and I sighed. His speech hurt me somehow. It's not that I'm being lazy, I just don't have the strength to do anything else.

It's not something I easily control. I'm always trying to do something productive, but lying on my bed while sucking on my pacifier is way better. I'm tired of not listening to explanations, I look like a toy going back and forth!

- Look... do you know how tiring it is for me? I deserve explanations, what the hell happened? I can't stand to live without knowing what to expect from tomorrow or if I'm going to stay strong anymore! It's so frustrating not being able to eat or even shower. I'm tired, tired of just hearing excuses and in the end looking like a soccer ball that doesn't sit still. I moved from country to country without even wanting to, they put me on a plane knowing I was scared to death and nobody did anything! I cried, felt short of breath and nobody did a damn thing! Doesn't my opinion matter? Is it that invalid? - I said so fast that I didn't even notice my serious tone. My voice came out thicker than usual from having spoken all the right words. Nick looked at me surprised by my words and just shook his head no. I lowered my head, sighing deeply as tears rolled down.

We didn't say anything else during the short ride home. He got a serious look on me, I think I ended up pissing him off. But I just said what I felt! We arrived at the garage and I grabbed some bags, got out of the car and headed towards the inside of the house. I walked quickly to my room and left the bags in a corner of it.

I took off my clothes, leaving only my bra and panties, I was in agony with so many clothes I was wearing. I grabbed my teddy bear, my pacifier and threw myself on the bed pushing any kind of bad thoughts out of my head. I just need to relax now...