A Book with A Series of Different Stories

Hey... I loved You... Goodbye

I look at your picture on my phone with a smile. Then, it turned upside-down, knowing that you will never be mine.

There I was, standing far behind you... Looking, longing for you to look at me lovingly like how you look at her. I smile when you smile. But I stopped, and frowned, knowing that there was never and will never be us. I walked away with my heart aching.

There were are, sitting next to each other, I look at your beautiful eyes, I swore my heart was going to explode then and there. I looked away, and looked back... Your eyes lovingly look at mine, you smile was contagious. Then your gaze fixated on her. You left without batting an eye to me. I followed your movement, heart aching as I watch you talk to her and laugh. I'm envious.

I dreamt of us having kids together. Happy. I thought of loving and funny scenarios in my head. I would laugh, and stop. Are you thinking the way I am right now? Or are you busy texting someone else?

Despite having those scenarios in my head, it doesn't change the fact that there will never be us. Tears rolled down my cheeks.

I don't want to loose you...

At night, I cry thinking about you and her being together. I'm tired... I want t give up loving you, but I can't... What have you done to me... Please let me go...

Please...

The next day, I skipped school, you texted me and asked where I am and if I'm alright. I said yes, with a smile. You sent a picture of you during class with a caption saying Wished you were here today :) I laughed. But I stopped and frowned. No, there will never be us...

Don't get your hopes up...

I checked our previous messages, laughing at our silliness. I felt happy, heart fluttering, butterflies filled my stomach. That feeling was great. I hope it never ends.

But just like that, we started drifting away from each other.

Hey, I missed you so much...

Then, we ubruptly stopped talking like a balloon falling on a green grass. Our relationship was fragile. It stung my heart like never before. We used to call, text and laugh together... But now, you ignore me, miss my calls and disregard my messages. It's as if we've become total strangers.

I cry, day and night. For weeks... Months... I would look at you, desperately trying to get your attention but to no avail. You keep gaze at her only.

My worse fear came to reality. That I would loose you.

There was nothing I could do...

I loved you. Genuinely.

I became depressed and had anxiety. Through my darkest years, you weren't there to help me. But it's okay. I know you have other things to worry about. Hey, I'm fine :)

After what felt like years of no communication. We finally talked again. I was happy and I felt like you were too. We began talking, it felt like we never parted ways.

You gave me a piggyback and I could swore my whole world changed. You changed me. There was nothing that could destroy me... I thought...

But......... Fairy tales don't exist in our world... that was our last day together. I could no longer handle the pain and suffering. I lost hope. You tried your best to help. But it was too late. But before I forget... Thank you for trying...

Hey, I'm fine. Everything is fine.

And that was it...

I love you, goodbye...

Wherever you might be right now, I hope the best for you. I'll always be there, looking after you.

I missed you so much...

I love you, goodbye...