Tangled

I have your answer

⚠️⚠️This chapter has mentions of self harm so if you have some issues you can skip till I mention safe. ⚠️⚠️

Thanit’s POV

I was just standing there watching him leave me, and my life for always, with a promise of never coming back.

All I could do from here is to just see his back & hope that he will come back.

But no he left, my legs also left my support making me fall & cry on my misery, my fortune, my cowardness.

Manaow was right I was never made for him, how could I even claim to love him when I leave him the second a problem came.

It’s better for him atleast he could find someone who won’t be afraid to hold his hands in front of his parents, someone who would have guts enough to accept him in front of whole world someone not like me, someone who isn’t shitty like me.

With this thought I went inside the stall to complete my dinner. How pathetic isn’t it, the boy I claimed to love left me because of my happiness, & ideally i shouldn't be eating anything properly for days but here I am eating this lavishly spicy food.

I know I am pathetic if not I would have stopped him & told my dad that I love him I won’t leave him but no being the coward, pathetic, despicable, disguting, abominable person I am here.

I put all the chilies in my bowl, mixing them with aran’s bowl & started eating.

This spicy food isn’t spicy anymore, I ordered more spicy sauce & started eating. No matter how much spices I mix the burning sensation in my throat couldn't shadow the burns of my heart. I kept on eating in hope that the pain in my heart will subside but it kept increasing.

I was half bowl & something slipped down my mouth, no one could see what it is but I knew it wasn't sause it was something thicker & warm, I coughed a bit but I kept on munching everything in the bowl & finally I finished everything & I could feel the burning sensation in my stomach & an immense urge to drink water but I pushed the glass away.

I could feel dizziness but I walked towards my car my legs were wobbling every then & now and everyone in the foodstall were gasping & staring at me wide eyed.

Seems like they also know I am pathetic. But with next two steps there was dark spots in my vision after that everything went blur I felt my body hitting ground with some people running around me but then I saw aran, my baby smiling like always & every thing blacked out.

  Beeppp

  Beepp

  Beepp

Aahhh my stomach, my hand aaah stop this sound, nooooooo stooooopppp aaaaahhhhhh.

“THANIT THANIT ARE YOU OKAY” someone said this isn’t aran where is he, where am I.

I opened my eyes but closed immediately because of strong light.

“NURSE DIMMER THE LIGHTS” that person said, stoppp shouting damn it.

“THANIT thanit open your eyes” someone maybe manaow said. I opened my eyes tried to adjust with now dimmer but still bright light. Manaow was at my left side.

“Here drink this” she pushed a straw to my lips to drink …water.

“How are you feeling?” she asked.