Daughter of Nomads

Casual

Zoey

-Is he looking over here now?

-Yes!- Mindy chuckled.

-Good.- I finished my drink and grabbed Mindy by her arm, dragging her to the dance floor.

We had arrived to the party half an hour ago when Jake entered the house from the backyard. He was talking to Lucy, Kats girlfriend, while looking directly to me.

They stood beside the dance floor, when he started chatting to a very beautifull blonde girl, who was clearly interested on him, and kept throwing herself at him, while he kept shooting glances at me, smiling. Was he trying to make me feel jelaous?

Kat had approached me and Mindy on the dance floor, and she said Jake was completely drunk, which explained his attempts to make me feel jelaous.

I wasn't far from that anyways.

Mindy and I started dancing, and one thing I love about this girl, is that she couldn't give two fucks about what people think of her. We were calling up a bit of attention, dancing and laughing really loud, acting a bit stupid and slutty, but hell, we were wasted.

Two guys came to us and started dancing with each one of us. I smiled to my new dancing partner, as I could feel Jake's gaze. I looked at him, and he was staring right threw me, ignoring the blond girl who was desperitly trying to caught his attention. I smiled at him as I danced with my partner, and then broke the eye contact to see Mindy smilind evily at me.

All of a sudden, my partner was pushed away from me, as Zed took his place.

-Hey Zed! Greeaat party!

-Thanks- he chuckled at my obvious state of drunkeness-. Wanna dance with me?

I didnt answered, I just placed his hands on my hips, as I kept moving to the beet, completely lost in the music.

We danced for a few songs, and then went to the balcony.

Shocking as it may be, Zed was being sweet to me. He had noticed my druken state and wasn't taking advantage of it. Instead, he would try and keep me from drinking anymore, catch me if I stumbled or was about to fall, and just held me and keep me company.

-Zed?

-Yeah babe?

-Arent you supposed to be all flirty and, you know, a player? Why are you treating me so... Respectfully?- I asked him, while we were sitting on some stairs, on the backyard. Now that I think about it, how did we got here?

-Well, firstly, Im behaving because Jake is stareing at us, and he would kill me if I tryed anything with you at this state. Forget that, he would kill me if I tryed anything with you at any state. But also because I think you deserve more from me... You dont seem to be like the other girls, Zoey.

-Im not.

-And why is that?

-Cause I'm not... Happy.

-Why?- He looked completely interested in me, studying me, staring right into my eyes. Why was I telling him anything anyways?

It must have been the alcohol what got me to say the next things, cause I would never say it out loud if I was in my senses.

-Because, I dont deserve it. I dont deserve to be happy, Zed.

And then I kissed him. I kissed Zed. It felt right. I needed his lips on mine, I wanted to feel this again, at least for a second.

But it werent the lips I wanted, it didnt feel the same. It still felt amazing, but different from...

Jake.

Wait, am I kissing Zed? While Jake's probably watching?

I broke the kiss and rested my forehead against Zed's, staring confused at Zed's eyes. They were brown, not blue like Jake's, brown.

-Sorry- I whispered.

-Its okay- he smiled sweetely, staring fasinated back into my eyes. His eyes traveled back to my lips for a second, and then back to my eyes.- Why dont I drive you home? You look like you're done for the night, and the girls arent leaving the party any soon.

-Sure, lets go.

He help me stand, and I trumbled back to the house. Jake was nowhere to be seen, would he be off in some room, making out with that blonde as I was just doing with Zed?

The thought made me nautious, and Zed and I had to stop, as it seemed that I was about to get sick.

I managed to get to his car without pucking, and before getting in, Zed asked me:

-Are you sure you're not gonna be sick? You could stay in an empty room here like you did last time, if you wanted.

-Im okaaay, thanks. Lets go.

Zed drived me to the dorms and parked his car. He helped me down and walked me to my room. He helped me open the door and took me to the bed.

He sat with me, looking deep into my eyes.

-Listen Zoey, I wanna say something before I leave...

Fuck. Please, please dont let him have feelings for me, please.

-Zed, before you say something- I interrupted him, trying to clear my head so I would leave this clear.- Im not into relationships. At all.

-Oh. Hum, okay. Well I just wanted to say that, I know Jake likes you, and I know you like him. I also know that you think of me like a total player, mostly because I am. But I like you, and if you dont like relationships, well... I mean, what we did today, I want that to keep happening... I mean, I can be casual, if you want.- He was nervous, and kept avoiding my eyes.

-Oh. Yeah, that would be fine. I can be casual too. Just know, I will never want a relationship, no attachments, and I wont have feelings for you.

-Why? Why is that? - I stared back at his brown eyes, silently.- Is it because what you said earlier, about not deserving to be happy?- I still didnt answered- Why wouldnt you deserve to be happy? Everybody deserves that, Zoey.- he was staring deep into my eyes, I had to breack eye contact.

-Well then I guess I'll have to be casual. But you'll end up explaining this to me later. I think you do deserve to be happy, you deserve to be loved. But for now, I'll give you your space.

He wrapped his arms arround me, kissing me. It was a short sweet kiss and then he backed, kissing my forehead and caressing my hair.

-Goodnight Zo, see you tomorrow.

And then, he left our room.