ICARUS FELL (boy X boy) ✔

22) what's a Wattpad love interest without daddy issues?

(A/N- TW: Panic attack, Mentions of abuse, homophobia and daddy issues)

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I was in my room, reading a fan fiction on my iPad, basking in some sort of normalcy after a long week.

This last week was crazy.

After that fiasco with Linda and Altair followed by some more fiasco surrounding them (hot gossip, ask me later) they're finally dating now.

And then there were my feelings for Elio. Ever since our Carnival outing I cannot stop but think of him all the damn time and not even in an obsessive way. The thoughts of him comes so naturally it's like I am not even consciously making an effort to think of him yet all the departments of my brain are discussing the black nail polish on his right thumb or embarrassing me over all our encounters throughout this week (hot gossip please DO NOT ask me later).

I was having another set of similar debate in my head when I heard my alcove window slid open. The last time it happened, it was Elio sneaking in.

My heart beat quickened at the thought and surely as I saw him entering, I threw my iPad away and smiled at him.

But the smile only lasted for like two seconds. As soon as I saw his face, fear clawed inside me.

"Elio?" I quickly sprang out of my bed and ran to him.

"Are you o-" I was cut off as he hugged me. His eyes were bloodshot, he was shaking which I knew had nothing to do with the cold weather and his breath was coming out in shudders.

He mumbled something but since his face was buried in my shoulder I couldn't hear him.

"Okay let's sit down and talk 'kay?"

I brought him to my bed and made him sit on it.

"Do you want to talk?" I asked. He was now rubbing his forehead with both his palms, still trying to calm himself down.

"I need a moment" he said weakly. The strain in his voice broke my heart and his vulnerability shattered it.

"Take your time" I said rubbing his back.
He then placed his head on my lap and wound his arms around my midsection.

I was shocked but I recovered quickly because I knew he needed me.

We remained in that position for close to fifteen minutes with him just resting his head on my lap while holding me tight and I rubbed his back with one hand and his head with the other.

"Can we go out for a while?" He croaked. Now that he was comparatively relaxed, he looked more angry and agitated than scared and anxious.

"If that's what you want than yeah sure." It was ten p.m currently which means I'll have to sneak out with him through my window but Elio really needs it so it's worth the risk.

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We were out, roaming aimlessly in the streets. The weather was cold, thankfully not snowing like how it was few days ago when me and Elio went out on a shopping trip and had to take a lot of detours because of the snow.

Not that I was complaining.

It looked like it might rain tonight, so I insisted him not to go too far from both our localities.

He spoke up after ten minutes of us wandering aimlessly. When he did, I felt like someone chewed all the remaining shards of my heart and spit it out in a pith of lava.