Forever & Always {chandler riggs}

Chapter 33- If You Love Me Let Me Go

Sorry I really wanted to write this so its non edited. I'll edit it later😂

Samantha's POV

I woke up to snores. Gray.
Sams and Gray both stayed the night last night. I remember crying myself to sleep last night and Sam just kept hugging me and kissing my head.

My face was sticky feeling from tears. I need to take a shower. I got out of my bed and grabbed some clothes and went into the bathroom. I took off my clothes and took a shower. I just stood under the water and let tears fall.
I miss Chandler way too much.

After I was finished, I dried off and got dressed. I put on a sweat shirt that Chandler gave me. Then I put on some jean shorts. I brushed out my hair then french braided it and then I brushed my teeth. I put on deodorant and perfume and was done.

I opened the door.
"There you are." Sam said hugging me.
I hugged back.
"I just took a shower. My face was sticky." I said as I pulled away.
He smiled.

"I'm gonna take one downstairs then we can eat breakfast." Sam said.
"I'll take one too after you." Gray said.
"That's fine I need to pick up my room anyways." I said smiling.
Sam and Gray both grabbed there clothes and went downstairs.

Gray watched tv until Sam was done. I picked up my room. I made my bed too. I sat on my bed and spotted the gift bag Chandler gave me. He said wait until you get home. I'm home.

I walked over to it and grabbed it. I sat back on my bed. I grabbed the tissue paper and put it on the ground. I reached my hand in there to find a note. I put it down. I also found a photo album.

There was tons of pictures of me and Chandler and cute hand written messages from him. I'm already crying. I reached my hand in there again to find a box. I looked at it.

'Maybe easier to wear than the necklace😉'

I smiled and opened the box. It was a pretty silver ring with a diamond. I shook my head at the thought of Chandler buying me this. As I was putting it on I saw something carved inside the ring part.

'Samantha & Chandler'

I shook my head trying not to cry. That failed. I put it on. Perfect fit. I sighed and wiped my teary eyes. I reached in again to find something soft. Clothing. I pulled it out and laughed while now crying my eyes out.

His blue jacket. I smiled and kept it close. Tears fell on the jacket. It smelt like him. I started crying even more. I wiped them away and calmed myself.
I reached into the bag again to find the last thing.

The note. I bit my lip and held on to the jacket as I opened it.

Dear to the love of my entire life,
God where do I start? How about with an I Love You. I love you so much Sam. The first time we met was the best day ever. You are so beautiful. I hate to leave you. I never wanted too. I hate to have a long distance relationship and be away from you, but I have no choice. I can't stop crying at the thought of being away from you. So I can't not be in a relationship with you. I need to be with you to be okay. I just need to know that your mine and I'm yours, then I'm okay. I'm gonna miss you like crazy. I already told Gray and Sam that I was leaving. They kept it from you until yesterday. I'm sorry but if I told you, you wouldn't be okay. I couldn't see you like that. I'm sorry. I love you so much Sam. Just know that I always will love you no matter what happens. I'm not good at notes or letters like this so this is probably crappy. God I love you so much. This is turning into the fault in our stars. Great. I love you so much. I don't want to end this at all. God I don't. I love you I'll see you soon. Idk when but I will.
I love you♥︎
-Chandler