Across The Table

Chapter 4

So today was the day. The day I am going to decide to be stupid just for the sake of it. I called Rosemary and told her my answer. She's been bugging me about it for weeks. "Yes you can do it..." I bit my lip already slightly regretting it. "But you have to tell me everything he says!" I quickly added.
She was going to tell Carter that I liked him. Though I'd be the one telling her what to say. "Deal!" She agreed. Rosemary wasn't like me. She didn't really have high circumstances. Which was good for me. Another thing that helped me out was that if I needed to know a secret, she was the one I'd go to. She could not keep one secret. She would hold it in for days or if she was strong, a week before telling somebody.
I'd only known Carter for a few months. I kinda thought he might like me. But I was wrong. Too bad I didn't know that then. He seemed to be flirting with me sometimes. It was weird, but I liked it. Honestly its a good thing he didn't like me though. Well I guess so. Because if he did like me, well things might have ended up differently.
Crap! I thought when Rosemary hung up. Two minutes later she texted me what was going on. She found a perfect excuse to "accidentally" tell him that someone liked him without saying who. She was clever like that.
The conversation went on for a while before she finally admitted who I was. He said that he was sorry but he didn't like me that way. Surprisingly, I wasn't totally bummed out by this. Because it wasn't till later that it finally got to me what it all meant. And it wasn't till after that that I realized why it didn't really matter to me at first.
But I'd be lying if I said I wasn't disappointed at all. Because if I'm telling the truth, the smile on my face wasn't completely real. Sure I wanted him to be happy, but I just wished that he would be happy with me. Selfish. I know.
I went to school the next day, just like normal. Well except that I was twice as tired as usual from staying up late to listen to the what seemed never ending argument between Carter and Rosemary. It was quite funny though. She kept threatening to become a ninja and find him when he leasts expects it. She's a good friend. She backed me up. Sort of.
I focused on everything I had to focus on. But it was at the back of my head. Science. The place I was supposed to be dreading. Yet somehow, I didn't really care about seeing Carter. Most people would think of an interaction of this sort, awkward and embarrassing. I didn't. I've already embarrassed myself what do I have to lose. Awkward? Psh. I will flaunt whatever I've got in his face and say that he's all I think about and my crush and what not! I'm not one to really care about what I say or have said too much.
The day finally reached the time of 8th period. I walked into science class without a care in the world. I say down at my assigned seat and worked on today's assignment. I didn't even notice that Carter had sat down next to me. I continued working, no clue that he was sitting right there.
I finally realized his existence when he cleared his throat awkwardly and in a stop-doing-your-work-and-freaking-pay-attention-to-me sort of way.
I looked up without really caring. Up until this point it wasn't really a problem to me. That's when I met his eyes. I looked deep into his dark brown eyes. They reminded me of the semi-sweet chocolate chips my mom used to make pancakes every Sunday. Then it hit me. All of the awkwardness and embarrassment that I had been so sure of that I didn't have, hit me. My cheeks burned and I could feel myself tuning red. I pursed my lips and willed to look away, but my eyes wouldn't allow it.
So we just sat there, looking into each others eyes. Until finally I worked up the courage to say something. I wish I was a coward. "So the weather has been weird lately, huh? I think it might rain again tomorrow. It's been sunny, cloudy, sunny, cloudy." I thought that was as awkward as it could get, then he got up and said that he was gonna get some water. And he tripped over my chair. I closed my eyes and frowned, hoping this was all a dream and I would wake up not having told Carter anything.
Chloe walked into class saving me. She saw Carter on the floor, getting up to dust himself off, and waking away. She burst out laughing. "What happened? He looks like someone just tripped him!" The teacher shushed her and she stifled another laugh. As Chloe say down she whispered to me, "So why was he on the floor?" She had a smug grin on her face.
"Because somebody did trip him." I replied smirking a little. I checked making sure he was still 'drinking water' as he called it. He stopped at a friends desk and was chatting. "Who?!" Chloe asked desperately. I pointed to myself sheepishly and she almost died of laughter.
"Carter! Get back to your seat!" the teacher scolded and my lips tugged at the edges. He walked over and sat back down. We all looked up at the board where the teacher was going on about animals and plants and other science related things. I glanced over at Carter. He was already looking at me. His eyebrows furrowed as if he was confused. I looked away quickly. My face got hot again. I smiled to myself anyway.

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