flicker oneshots.

Pain can spread

idea request:byzantinne 

Reza

Angst lol

Pt 2 of bird

Part 1: bird

Part 2: pain can spread

Part 3: alive

TWs

anorexia and bulimia (ed)

slight intrusive thoughts

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REZA

     I hear mumbled sirens and see police cars and an ambulance rushing in my area. As they arrive I see nurses coming out of the ambulance and carrying Seungho into the van. I hated how I just watched but I couldn't really do much. Even if I went down and out of the building it would be too late to save him. Hot tears streaming down my eyes, I never felt worse pain than this. The worst thing is, I knew Seungho was going through mental problems. But I tried to help him. I really tried. I can't help but feel guilty. But how would I be able to properly take care of someone if I can't even take care of myself? Still, I feel so guilty. 

      I flop back down onto my bed and.. just cry. Thinking of all our memories together from childhood to early adulthood. Can't believe it all just went to the trash like this. Guess I should go and get his stuff before someone else does. But there were still police cars all around the area. They are probably discussing what the hell happened. I hope they leave soon and start the investigation tomorrow. I need to get his stuff. 

     Oh wait they're leaving. Perfect. I can get his stuff now. Hopefully I won't look like some suspect. We live in different apartment buildings just across the street. Trying to get up was hard, I couldn't even feel my bones. And plus the tears in my eyes blurring my vision. But I did it anyways. I made my way out the door and to the elevator. I pressed the first floor and the floor dropped going down. As the door opened I dashed to the exit and ran towards Seungho's apartment building. I almost got hit by a car but I couldn't care less. (mood) There was no one at the first floor when I entered his apartment building. Well obviously except for one. The desk manager. She seemed to be sleeping so I just went for the elevator and to the rooftop all the way up. I felt the little platform of the elevator shake and rose up the elevator door opened and no one was on the rooftop. Good. I saw the black jacket hanging on the railing and his phone on the floor. I walked towards it and just looked at the view. Man, I love the night sky of NYC and all the bright lights and buildings. It's really peaceful. But back to the topic I grabbed the jacket and took the phone, made my way back towards the elevator and down. The door opened. The desk manager still asleep. Good. Man this is crazy, my head hurts it's filled with anxiety and nausea. I'm probably just traumatized. Definitely traumatized. I watched as a few cars drove along the road, then crossed. Back to my apartment.. 

Few minutes later because theres no point in writing him just going back to his apartment lmao

I placed the jacket and phone on a little wooden chair that was right outside the closet. I dropped on my bed and cried. I cried myself to sleep.

In the morning

My eyes opened just a bit and the light blinded my eyes immediately "Oh god what the fuck.." I opened my eyes completely and closed the curtains. Much better. I thought. There was dried tears in my eyes and I immediately remembered what happened last night. Should I tell Mateo and Miguel? Nah.. My phone was literally exploding with notifications.. it was 11:43 am. Way later than I usually wake up. Seungho's phone was also exploding with notifications. God what is  Miguel and Mateo doing what the fuck. I picked up my phone and looked at the notifications. What the fu-