I'm not the type talk to people about how I'm feeling mostly because I was a shy freak and I don't like to talk to many people (mostly my friends). So when I had feeling I wanted to tell people I couldn't because I would think they didn't want hear me talk about my problems, so what did I do about it... nothing I didn't tell people my problem so I kept it to myself until I had a metal break down and just cry for hours and hours until I couldn't cry anymore
Then after the "problem" I had with my babysitter husband I became scared of men so scared that every time on the bus or train and a man would sit next to me I would to have a panic attack, after Therapy I felt better for a year then it happened for the second time I thought I was free but it just repeated itself but this time it happened with some different it was my mom partner and they have been together for 5 years, 5 fucking Years what can I do now it's still happening and there's nothing I can do to stop it
I'm to scared to do anything. There is nothing I can do about there is no one that can help me not this time
Thank you reading this have a great rest of your day
