Like most people I have parents, but their not vary good parents. I have my mom, step dad and bio dad. My parents got divorced a few years ago, but my mom wants full custody of me and my little brother, but the thing that bothers me is that she didn't even try to hide it from us! She just told us straight up, she also told us bad things about our dad and my dad did the same thing. And they mostly just told me because I was older but this had a big affect of me
This made me confused on who to trust and who not to trust, when my mom and dad were fight, I thought maybe it's my fault because their fighting, and when my mom told me how her and my step dad got in a fight. This send me in panic mood I was in the middle of a zoom meeting for school and I just started to cry and panic. The peoples that work at the daycare I was in (yes I did go to day for a few years) saw how much I was panicking that it made me not want to eat
And because they didn't know why I was having a panic attack they tried to calm me down but that just made it worse, so I had to stay in the room I was in for another hour because I just couldn't stop panicking.
And on top of that 2020 didn't start of well, I few days before Christmas I had finally told my mom about the "problem" I had with my babysitter's husband. And little did I know telling them that was the biggest mistake I ever made. Skipping a few months I ended therapy a few months age, and to say the Least I feel worse then I was before, my metal heath just dropped and ever improved.
Now the hole thing I when though This happing again, I just can't tell my my mom because I don't want her to over work herself, so now here I am writing this vent story instead of getting help. But I do have one good thing to say I now have a great friend group of 6 (adding myself) there are 5 girl (plus me) and one boy. I'm pretty close with my male friend he also has family problems, he alway hugs me but I don't mind because I love hugs,and we both draw a lot. To be honest I feel more happiness form school then at home. I happy that I made friends at this school and good friends :)
