lies (enemies to lovers gxg)

Chapter 4.

TW-

-SH

-using

-swearing

Macys pov-

It was the end Thursday. Somehow I hated Thursday, like any other day of the week.

I was up till 2 am last night trying to do a school project, i got 45 minutes of sleep, lately it feels like i didn't really want to live, i was just living to survive, the only reason keeping me alive was sage, and i knew she didn't like me like that because we weren't even friends.

I usually didn't eat breakfast, so I woke up, put on clothes and went to school. Like usually my friends came to me venting, by then I had just had enough, I was going to go insane trying to keep everyone else alive.

And then he just- i cut off one of my friends

Dude, can you just stop. You're using me for advice, and I can't do it anymore. Go get a fucking theripst if your so hurt. I'm not your therapist. I'm done with you guys.'' I said clenching my fists and walking away.

I could hear them talking about me as I left. I looked down at my palms. Covered in blood. the =y had a little moon shaped on them bleeding from my fingernails. I had always done that when I was little. It was a way for me to get my anger out.

I ran to the bathroom to wash off the blood. When I walked in I bumped into someone. Sage. Why her. Why just why.

Oh my gosh I'm so sorry.. Macy? she asked

Are you ok? she asked, looking down at my hands.

I nodded my head and tried to push through my tears. But she wouldn't let me.

Here let me help you. she said, grabbing my hand. She pulled me over to the sink and grabbed a paper towel.

I had tears in my eyes, looking down at my hands. I knew I had messed up. Again. And now the person i didn't want to know, knew. I tried my best not to cry, it just couldn't happen. I don't cry.

Here open your hand. I heard Sage say. I looked at her and made eye contact with her. Almost crying.

She had pretty eyes, they were hazel like chocolate. She had a small nose and small lips, her hair was also hazel, more like a dirty blond. But it was so pretty on her.

I opened my hands and she cleaned them off. I flinched at it, it hurt as if it was an open cut.

Sorry. she kept saying. She was sweet, she was caring and thoughtful. Maybe I did still like her. More than a friend. I knew it was wrong. I knew I couldn't. I knew she was my enemy, but something inside me told me it was ok. So maybe I did like her.

Sages pov-

I helped Macy with many things, mostly up until now it was work. But now I was helping her clean off cuts or marks in her hands. I can't lie, I liked hanging out with her. She made me feel safe, a way no one else has. She made me feel happy. So i was happy to help, i was also sad because i was helping her clean her hands of blood.

After I was done I took bandaids out of my bag and put them on her hands.

Ok, you're all cleaned up. I said putting my stuff away.

Thank you. she said standing blankly.

Are you ok" I'm not gonna ask what happened if you don't want to tell me but I want to make sure you're ok because you don't seem like you are. i said stepping closer to her now really close to her. My face heats up being so close to her. Her freckles, and her hair, everything about her was so perfect. I loved it. Wait no no no i cant, i can't like her. She hates me like I hate her. The past is the past, nothing more.

Yeah I'm ok, just stressed out about things. she said, tears filling her eyes again. I wanted to hug her. I was afraid that would make her uncomfortable though, so I didn't.

Ok, I'm here if you need anything. I care about you.'' I said making eye contact with her, she was a little taller than me. But only by a little bit.

We stared at each other for a couple moments. The tension was high and we both knew what we wanted. We started to lean in almost kissing. But before we could, the bell rang. We pulled away.

I grabbed my bag and stood back up.

So I'll see you after school at your house? she asked me grabbing her bag.

Yep, I said. Nodding my head and walking out. I didn't know what just happened. I liked it. But I didn't. She was stressed out so it didn't mean anything. It didn't mean anything to me. Right?

Did I want it to mean something, yes.

Did it mean something, maybe

Maybe I did like her that way.

A/N

wow double pov who are they!? just kidding I hope you enjoyed! thank you guys so much for reading and giving feedback.

love you all, get rest and water <3

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