Just A Sudden

JAS: 098

Aloysius Mikhael

12:19 a.m.

Aloysius:

Sorry talaga, Li.

Hope we could talk this thing out. Though hindi naman kita minamadali

Take your time

Alam kong galit o nagtatampo ka

Lou:

Hindi ako galit

I just want to know why?

Aloysius:

I'm sorry

I'm a fool for ruining the peace that you had before I came

Lou:

To be honest, it doesn't matter what Jeff said to me

That you were a wreck and you were just trying to find yourself again

Gusto ko lang magtanong

Aloysius:

Anything Jahlia

Lou:

May mga araw ba no'n na naiirita ka?

O nakukulitan sa'kin?

Aloysius:

Hindi, Li.

You girl, I would never feel that kind of way

Lou:

'Yong totoo?

Aloysius:

No

I promise

I'm sorry why you think like that

It's my fault

But did I do something back then? Or say anything na naisip mo 'yan?

Lou:

To be honest, you did not do anything until recently

But maybe it's just really my abandoment issues could never

Aloysius:

I'm sorry

Lou:

Why do you keep saying that

Aloysius:

Because I need to

I am still not at my best state, Li.

I can't function fully since marami-rami talaga ang nangyari sa'kin the past few days

Lou:

Pahinga ka muna

Take a break

Aloysius:

Already did

But I still feel drain and it just sucks

Lou:

What can I do to help?

Aloysius:

Wala, Li. Gusto ko lang sana na pakinggan mo 'ko.

Lou:

I am already

Pero seryoso, 'wag mo ko i-ghost

I mean kung gusto mo umalis

Sabihin mo lang ako

Ayos na 'yon kesa sa hindi nagpapa-alam

Maiintindihan ko.

Aloysius:

Li. . . 

I'm not gonna ghost you

Pasensya na talaga if it took me some time to message you again

But I couldn't also make myself clear

Aaminin kong malabo akong tao ngayon

And you are so god damn great that I am scared

Lou:

Bakit?

Aloysius:

I'm fucked-up right now

I might ruin your life I continue this thing

I don't wanna ruin the friendship we have share

I'm not leaving you, though

I wanna still be friends with you

Lou:

Magkaibigan naman tayo

Aloysius:

Yeah but we both know it was more than a friendship

Didn't say I love you?

I mean it, Li.

What I want right now for us is that only pure friendship

Matagal na matagal na pagkakaibigan

Because I honestly neglect people before you came

Lou:

Can't find any words to reply

Aloysius:

It's okay you don't really have to you know

I just really wanted to explain this since ayaw ko talaga sirain, Li

I don't wanna ruin your experience having a relationships

You deserve one, you deserve to be happy really

But I don't think I am the one who could give those things to you right now.