Y/N POV-
As per usual, all of the avengers were requested in the meeting room. I walked down. This time I wasn't last- it felt good. I moved a seat to the corner where I slouched in my chair and lit a cigarette.
The last person to enter the meeting room was Natasha. She was wearing sweats, her nose was red and her eyes were swollen. The familiar look of when she'd been crying. I looked away and puffed my cigarette again. The meeting was well underway in which throughout the whole time I had been blowing the cigarette smoke Bruce's way which earned a dirty look from him.
"We have a mission." Steve finally said something relevant. I sat forward in my chair as I held the cigarette between two of my fingers. "You're all going, I trust all of you to do as good a job as per usual." He stated. I blew the smoke out again before speaking from the back of the room, "So you trust me now huh?" I asked sarcastically. Steve didn't say anything. Nor did anyone else. I rolled my eyes and smirked before leaning back again.
"You will each be in pairs, Me and Thor will hold back any soldiers outside. Yelena and Wanda will infiltrate the base inside and take down any soldiers there. Clint and Tony will watch from above and be our cover. Banner you will remain in the jet in case we need a code green." That left me and Natasha. Shit. "Natasha and Y/N you are our people going to retrieve the intel from the computer, you'll need this hard drive." He threw it to me and I caught it without looking up to see where it was heading. With that everyone got up and left to get their suits on.
"Hey Y/N-" I turned around quickly which startled Natasha so she couldn't finish her sentence. I slipped the hard drive into her pocket. "You take it." I told her. "Why what are you going to be doing?" She asked me. "Well right now i'm gonna go back to my room, pack a bag, and then I'm leaving. This will be the last time you see me." I told her. I could almost hear her heart cracking. "Please i'm begging you, don't leave. I need you here. Even if you hate me Y/N I just want to see your face. Please don't go. I need you. I need you." Natasha begged. "Sorry not sorry Natasha, remember this was your fault. You had your chance and you blew it. This is on you. If you try and come after me, i'll kill you myself." I threatened.
With that I began to walk away. "What happened to us Y/N? What happened to 'to whatever end?' What happened to forever?" She shouted down the corridor as she cried. I felt a spiral of temptation building up inside of me. My heart was beating fast. I couldn't breathe. I felt like I was dying.
Under the influence of desire, I rushed back towards Natasha. I walked towards her as I knew she would back up. Just as I thought she backed up against the wall. I put my hands beside her head against the wall so she couldn't go anywhere. "You really wanna know what happened to us?" I asked to which she nodded. "You happened to us Natalia. You." I told her honestly. She looked up into my eyes as I looked down into hers. Mine were hungry for her as hers were for me.
"Kiss me." She said. "What?" I whispered lowly. "I want you to kiss me before you go, just one more kiss." She told me. My eyes moved from one eye to the next before they travelled down to her lips. My holy trinity. I took one hand off the wall as the other remained there. I moved my hand to her waist and pulled her impossibly closer to me. I gripped her waist tightly as a suggestion that no one else could touch her but also that I craved her.
I leaned down to her height as my lips met her soft ones. I was kissing her, again. She really did have me wrapped around her finger. Her tongue desperately tried to enter my mouth, I allowed it to. Her tongue moved to fill every spot in my mouth and every part of my tongue. She wanted to remember it all before I left. By now she knew there was no chance of me staying so she made this moment last. She jumped up and wrapped her legs around me to which I held them there. I pressed her back against the wall for stability and continued to kiss her. I really was going to miss her.
This person, this redhead, Natalia... my baby, was most definitely my one true love. I knew I couldn't have her because of who we both were and what she's done but God did I love everything about her. But it's not like we were even together. I didn't even ask her to be my girlfriend. At least I took one precaution. I savoured the moment as I knew it would be our last. Finally we pulled away as a tear fell out of Natasha's eye. I wiped it away. "Don't waste your tears, my Natty, not on me. I never existed okay? I was never here." I told her. "I love you Natalia Alianovna Romanova. I always will." "Don't go." She said. I bit the inside of my cheek. I couldn't give in. I stared deep into her eyes one last time before saying, "Close your eyes baby, it will be easier." She looked at me one last time before she shut her eyes as her chin quivered and more tears fell. With that I kissed her head and touched the pendant around her neck before I left.
I love you Natasha Romanoff.
