more than a program (fnaf security breach chica x roxy fanfic)

5) privacy!

ROXY
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Back in my greenroom, Chica sits on my sofa as she explains. I pace around, listening to her and trying to piece it all together.

"So... It's like a problem with your program?" I ask.

"I don't know, Roxy. It feels like something else entirely. Like... a virus? No... a glitch? It has to be..." Chica stands up as she comes to a revelation I don't quite understand yet. "Wait! Didn't you see Freddy tonight? At the end of the performance?"

"Hm? Oh, yes. I didn't really pay attention," I confess. I was a bit caught up in my own world to have cared, but Freddy did fall over after our performance. I felt ashamed for not being more concerned about my friend.

"I didn't think much of it until now. But he's glitching, I'm glitching... Something's going on. I don't know what it is, but it's evil, Roxy, I know it is... I remember being blind with rage and charging at the kid. That is, I was, until..." She trails off.

"Until... what?"

"Until you came," she says softly. "When you said something, the glitch... it got weaker for some reason."

There's a moment of silence. I stand up and gently close the distance between us. "And why would that be?"

Chica gets flustered and turns away. "I don't know, okay?! I just... All I know is that we need to figure out what's going on. Because today is just getting weirder and weirder." She grabs my hand and pulls me to sit with her on the sofa. She looks down at her lap, and when she speaks, her beautiful voice shakes. "My... my thing. With trash. I was programmed to pick up and dispose of trash, but... it's grown into something more than that. I've never told anyone this, Roxy... but I'm terrified... A few weeks ago, I was looking through the records of the trash I've consumed. And I found something.... I found.... Roxy, I ate human flesh! And I don't even remember doing it!" Chica chokes on her words. She breaks down in tears and I hug her tightly.

"Sh... it's okay, Chica..." I whisper.

When she settles down, her voice is raspy. "Roxy, I'm scared that this glitch... whatever it is... it's making me evil."

"Chica, I.... are you sure that it's a glitch?" I ask gently.

"What? What else could it be?" Chica asks.

"Well... it's just... I know you have a big heart. But the thing is, the entire Fazbear enterprise is known for their corruption. Every restaurant, every attraction, every animatronic has stories surrounding it, about missing and murdered kids and psychos and... well. It's no secret. I have rages, too. It might just be that all of this is in our nature."

"What?!" Chica stands up and staggers away. "What are you even saying?! Can you even hear yourself right now?!"

Standing up, I groan and try to explain myself. "Chica, I'm just being honest. We're not human. We're something else. Our program... we're more than a program, Chica. We're sentient. And with sentience, our personalities develop. Maybe... maybe I developed more anger, and you just developed a taste for human-"

"SHUT UP! Shut up shut up shut up!" Chica yells. She pushes me, and I fall back on the sofa. "You're horrible! How could you say that? I would never hurt anyone on purpose. Something else, something foreign is... is corrupting me. How dare you, trying to convince me that it's normal to hurt kids?!"

She stops. "Unless... You... I never realized that you hated the children. I thought you just didn't know how to relate to them. But now I see. Now it all makes sense. You have no compassion at all for anyone. You don't feel anything at all. You're mean to me for fun, and nice to me when you want something from me. I'm sick of it! You don't care about the kids, you don't care about me. I shouldn't have come here. I'm sure Freddy would've understood. At least he is capable of empathy!"

She storms out, leaving me stunned and angry.



CHICA
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"Chica! Stop!"

"No! Get away from me!"

Roxy grabs me by the arm and forces me to look at her. "Chica. I am very capable of empathy. I always have been."

"Liar. You tell me that it's in both of our nature to kill little kids, and then you expect me to believe that you aren't a psycho?! Not to mention how you treat me- how you treat everyone!"

"Chica, I-" Roxy growls, then takes a moment to calm her voice. "I didn't say all that to make you upset. I just... I don't see what kind of glitch could possibly affect us this much. The truth is, I don't really like the kids. They're annoying, sticky... but the reason I hate them is because I'm overwhelmed."

Roxy grabs my hand and places it to her chest. "Chica... I know I act mean. Rough. Standoffish. Selfish. But... I'm terrified, Chica. I'm terrified of not being good enough for those kids. I'm terrified that if they don't like me enough, then I'll just get scrapped for another, better animatronic... and that fear is eating me alive. It's hard to love the kids when I'm so worried and anxious about their opinions of me. And when I don't know how to relate to them, I just... I get scared and angry. And that's the truth. I'm a coward."

I'm silent. My hand is still on her chest. "You're not a coward..." I mumble, avoiding eye contact.

"Chica... if I'm mean to you, it's only because I'm jealous that you don't have to be afraid. Relating to the kids comes naturally to you. I love that about you... and there's so many things about you that I love."

Almost subconsciously, I drag my hand on her chest down her torso. "Shut up..." I say weakly. "You're just lying to me to get what you want from me..."

"And... what is it that I want from you?" Roxy asks. "Or, rather, what is it you want from me?"

I wrap my arms around her and pull her close. I kiss her roughly, and run my hands through her hair. It's soft... and her kiss is so intoxicating...

Suddenly, an alarm sounds through the halls. We both jump away from each other, startled. It's an alarm... coming from the daycare.

We both start running toward the daycare, but I stop. "Roxy... last time, seeing that little kid triggered the glitch. I'm scared it'll happen again."

Roxy grabs my hand. "Listen. I'll be there. If we see that kid, I'll watch what happens, and if necessary, I'll stop you from hurting him. I promise."

I nod after a second. "Okay... I trust you. Let's go."