Different Now - Omegaverse Bakudeku

Peter Rabbit

Hey gang, I really need some easy serotonin so here we are, pls enjoy my very poorly structured story 😋🙏 

Also 1st person era yay!

yours very infrequently,
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"About our... relationship, Todo," I said with more of an attitude than I meant. I swallowed hard and moved my ever fidgeting hands into my lap. He must have sensed something was wrong, there was no way I could have been perceived as anything but a wreck at this moment. His face changed when he looked back to me, soaking in every word I gave him. It was like he knew everything I was going to tell him. As I looked at him my heart sank. Maybe I could make this work. Maybe there is something here. I panicked, grasping at metaphorical straws and tearing the paper off of a literal one. I stabbed the plastic tube into my pitiful cup of water I had asked for on the way in. My jaw ached from all the tension I had hid within it. So much so, I had to mentally pry my teeh apart before I could sip from the cup in my hand. I felt as my iced water tore through my diaphragm and soon the words I had been formulating ran through me, almost as fast as the chill my drink sent through my spine.

"I want this to work, but I think," I Paused my stomach reaching into my throat with anxiety. "Shoto, we are very different people. You're reserved and cold, for lack of better words." I cringed. Walking into this small soba shop, I knew what needed to be done nearly as certainly as I knew Todo's order; Pork Soba with extra spring onions. It was a shame, so many things I knew about him that I'd simply have to file away in the deep parts of my brain and choose to forget about. Todoroki looked at me, a stone expression on his features, his hands balled on either side of his bowl of steaming noodles. If I had better hearing I'm sure I would have been able to hear the gears moving in his mind, worried connections being made faster that I could get my thoughts to properly become words. "I don't mean you're cold, you're just more independent than I could ever be. And I think it's better you find something who needs to depend on you less, I mean, my body, my hormones make me something of a tick to anyone who wants to be in a relationship with me and I don't think that's what you want. Being a beta, you wouldn't biologically have that urge to keep and care i just don't think we're a good match." I couldn't not ramble, my words bubbled out of me like a coke bottle used as a shake weight, it was embarrassing and irrevocable. I had been too busy staring at the straw in my hands to find any emotion on Todo's face and when I did look up, the only change in that rocky expression was a furrowed brow.

"I understand what you mean but my biology has nothing to do with it." I flinched, not in worry but just as a reaction to the first words from an otherwise quiet person. "I care for you Izuku, I'm not the best at speaking it or even showing it most time, but if i didn't care I wouldn't be around at all."  I swallowed, frustration curling around my spine and squeezing at my lungs. "Right but, I'm the type to need it spelled out for me, I need someone who can speak it and show it. And maybe you need someone who doesn't need those things and I think you should find that and I think I should go."

With that all bandaids had been ripped away, leaving nothing but fresh wounds to fester and I couldn't be around for the aftermath. Before I could really consider anything, my body slid from the tall chair I was in. I grabbed my small water cup and made a b-line for the door. It was embarrassing how quickly I could run, scurrying like a rabbit caught one too many times in the flower bed. I am meant for running on all levels of my being. Fighting that fact is only something I truly can handle in the training ring. I needed to feel strong and I needed it quickly. My stomach cramped and I realized the pill I swallowed before this grand escape had nothing to surround it in my stomach. Going back into the soba shop was not an option as I was two blocks away now and had only plans to keep walking. I figured there was a small curry stand right outside the gym most of UA frequented. That's where I set my waypoint.