DNR

Prologue

"I'm sorry, Mr. Yukashi. We did our best."

My mind refused to process anything I just heard. My mind fell silent. My whole world went silent.

How do I accept this defeat while being completely aware that I have given the best that I could give to make her stay?

What... do I do?

The only thing I could feel in my body was my heart— being ripped apart. It's shattering. Every part of me was numb except my heart. Everything... was not functioning.

Was that all? Was that really the sum of our bests? Was that really the best they could give? Did we really run out of hopes now? Was she... really gone?

Tears began to escape from my eyes and I knew that it would take awhile before it stops. "I..." I couldn't recognize my own voice. "I understand..." I lied.

I don't understand. I didn't understand before, I still can't understand now. Why am I always left behind with no fucking choice?! Why is it so hard for her to stay with me?!

Why did I have to arrive late? There are so many times in my life where I could just be late and lose nothing. Why did I have to be late on this one? This one cost everything— every inch of me.

"May I have a moment alone, please?" I asked the private investigator that I hired to help me find her. I had to— I was already losing my mind.

I tried to find her, even when she clearly told me goodbye. Even when she broke me with another goodbye, I still chose to find her to put my mind at ease by making sure she's safe.

It took us months.

Now that I think about it, it took us so long. Maybe that's the reason why she was gone when we arrived. After months of hearing, "I'm sorry, Sir. She's not in this location.", I finally heard them say, "We found her."

But it was too late.

I lost my her.

I lost Xavierre.

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