Dark Blue (ColeIM5) #Wattys2016

Chapter Ten.

This whole time i was writing this story i was thinking about the songs Hotel Ceiling, Not A Bad Thing, Why Try, Halo, Want You To Want Me and Lightweight. But YEEEASSS ALMOST 700 READS I AM SO HAPPY!!! Thank you guys for your support for the story...tbh i was thinking about deleting it since i had serious writers block but i broke thought it......sorry if this story is alittle confusing so I changed the description a little to match the story. Well tried to.

{ Autumn }

       I stared at the ceiling on my back, I couldn't sleep at all my head hurts to much for me to sleep. I turned my head and seen the most beautiful creature ever that existed. He looks so peaceful while he was sleeping it melted my heart. I reached over and traced his jaw with my fingers and softly smiled. I carefully got out of bed and slowly got out of bed and made my way downstairs without making a sound. I walked into the kitchen and reached for a glass fulling it up with water. I'm not sure how long I was down here but it felt like a long time because she sun started to shine through the window. I just stood there behind the counter staring into space when a pair of arms wrapped around me lacing are fingers. " You okay " he put his his in the crook of my neck. I nodded not confident with my voice so he doesn't know im lying to him.

" You don't have to lie to me Autumn is alright to be upset. " i turned my head a little and looked him and gave him a small smile which i seem to do a lot now. " I'm so used to not crying, not used to nobody being here to hold me while i'm crying except for my mom and Dad and sometimes Jessie when she can or when i lie to her about how what i'm feeling. I don't like crying infront of people. It makes me feel..weak. Like i'm not strong enough to deal with everyone that's close to me is leaving." my voice cracked with every word " You should get use to me being here, I'm not leaving anytime soon, It's alright to cry Autumn that doesn't show you're weak, it shows that you have a fragile, loving, and heavy heart " he squealed me a little.

This doesn't feel right to me. It's not about him holding me, it doesn't make sense on why is he so..caring about how i feel. I don't know maybe i'm just having mixed emotions. " Why ? " i asked him staring out the window. " Why what ? " i kinda aggravated me how he's the only person who actually cares. " why do you care so much, you only known me for 4 days " i shook my head looking at the ground. He turned me around so i was facing him with his arms where still wrapped around my waist. " To tell you the truth, I don't have an answer for that. But i'm not as inconsiderate as people think i am, especially to the one's i love " he spoke truthfully looking down at me. I was about to nod until I caught the last part. " Wait...did you just say you...loved me? " he placed his forehead on mine. " I said it didn't I " my mouth opened not knowing what to say until something i started to regret saying " How ? How could you say you love someone and haven't even got to know them properly, let along play with like they're your little toy. " I broke away from him running my fingers through my hair.

I don't understand, yes i admitted to my-self i fell for him. Hard. But i didn't expect him to feel the same so soon.

He narrowed his eyes at me looking quite pissed. " You think I'm treating you..Like a toy. Are you fucking serious? " he rubbed his hands over his face. " You know you are sure is ungrateful as hell for someone who just admitted that they love you " i looked at him a little taken back. " I'm ungrateful ! I Don't even know you enough, let alone wear my heart on my sleeve for you and you expect me to say it back.  " i am so heated. I'm not getting hurt. NOT again, I don't even know why i am even here. " Why are you so afraid of letting your letting your guard down. It's not like i'm gonna hurt you" I shook my head. "I DON'T KNOW THAT ,I'VE BEEN HURT TO MANY DAMN TIMES BEFORE AND I'M STARTING FEELING THINGS FOR YOU, I'm scared. I'm scared of being heartbroken and it hurts. A lot ! And every time you touch or kiss me i feel electricity runs through me and it makes me unwilling to let you love me if i wanted to" i screamed at him with tears starting to form. " It feels like the walls i build are starting crumble and i'm trying to build them back up but you keep knocking them down. I don't wanna fall because i fall so easily and easy to break. "