Hard To Express

The realization

(3rd person POV)

All the Northstar boys were having thier usual 9am meeting. After everyone put thier ideas in for what they would do today, ty walked upstairs, Kane and regie went to the kitchen, Oliver, Sebastian and Darren went to thier rooms. Leaving Ryan and Justin.

(Ryan's POV)

I looked around seeing everyone leaving except Justin. I glanced at him observing him from head to toe. As I did that he looked at me, I quickly looked away.

'So embarrassing!' I thought to myself. I see Justin get up to walk towards me.
"Hey man." He says sitting next to me.
"Hey Justin." I say putting on a short smile.

(Justin's POV)

I noticed Ryan stare at me so I thought I would talk to him. I got up walking towards him, sitting next to him. "Hey man." I say, "hey Justin." Ryan says with a short smile. I really like when Ryan smiles, even when it's for a second or two.
Wait what!? What am I saying,

'stop with the weird thoughts Justin.' I whisper to myself.

Ryan looks up at me with a confused face.

"You ok Justin?" He asks tapping my shoulder.

"Yeah I'm ok, sorry." I say laughing nervously.

(3rd person POV)

It's 3:45pm in the afternoon and all the boys are in thier rooms except Oli and Ryan.

They are both in the kitchen on thier phones.

Oli looks at Ryan, who has a sour expression on his face.
"You ok Ryan?" Oli asks in concern.

Ryan looks up changing his expression quickly.
"Yeah I'm fine." He says walking away.

6:25pm at night

Justin walks into his and Ryan's room, and sees Ryan by his computer editing a video. He quietly slips by in the bathroom and shuts the door.

A few minutes later Justin gets out seeing Ryan still editing the same video. The video on the screen hasn't changed a bit so Justin walked up to Ryan seeing that he fell asleep editing. He picks up Ryan and puts him on his bed.

8:57am next morning

All the Northstar boys are down stairs except Ryan for the 9am meeting. Everyone is getting antsy waiting for him.

"Do you know where he is Justin?" Ty asks looking at his watch.

"No when I went down stairs he wasn't even in his room." Justin says scratching his neck.

All the boys and manager ty looked confused and worried. Until they heard the front door open. It was Ryan.

"Ryan where did you go? And your late to the meeting." Ty asks concerned.

Ryan walked into the room and sat on the couch no one was sitting on. " sorry I just went to see a friend." He said leaning his head back onto the chair.

Everyone looked at him in silence.
"You went to a friend's house this early in the morning?" Sebastian asked slightly chuckling.

Ryan nodded as Ty cut off thier conversation to move on.

(Justin's POV)

I looked over to Ryan who looked really exhausted and out of it.

"Ok everyone that's all." Ty said walking upstairs.

I looked around, moving closer to Ryan.

"Hey Ry, you ok? You look tired." I ask him patting his shoulder.