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Raheem P.O.V

As I sat on the floor trying to get my heart rate back beating in a steady pace, I pondered over kicking the shit out that nigga ass for shoving me out the window. I could've died, falling three stories down. Just thinking about this shit pissing me off even more. I jumped up from off the floor, stretched my aching bones, and found James and this dude in our folks room. What he have on me. He ain't even fine, he dress like a fucking bomb, and I bet he a broke ass nigga. "Whats going on." I asked not really expecting a pleasant answer. I wanted him to charge towards me again so I could move out the way and beat him to a pulp once he fell. "Nothing." Bit hid his right hand quickly as if I couldn't see what he had before he did that. "Bruh gone bout yo business." He swarmed me off with his hand like I'm some type of flying insect. "He is my business and I'll be damned if I let him try to kill himself again." I yelled with much rage building up inside me. "He just taking a pill to calm his nerves, get lost." I'm just so tired of this dude speaking when he dont even have a say so. He don't know how it feel to come home and find your boyfriend unconscious and witness him just lying in a hospital bed for two whole months. Just for the simple fact of him being here, and messing up the chance of me ever getting him back, I punched him in the face with all my strength. He fell to the floor and I shook my hand from the pain his bones caused on my knuckles. "Give me this." I turned to James and snatched the pills and bottle away. "I don't even have words to explain how I feel right now. I just can't believe you." I said throwing the pills towards the wall, causing Bit to jump. Cupido rose up from the floor and we stared each other down. I stepped back a little. "I don't even wanna fight you bruh. Him trying to kill his self for the second time proves, it ain't even worth it. You won, I don't even want nobody like that." I said pointing at Bit. Without a doubt Im in love with him, but I cant deal with this or bare witness him in a coma from overdosing on those pills again. "Who cares, I was done with you a long time ago." James said stepping in front of this nigga. "Alright but don't try to kiss me again then." I say as I walk towards the door. I knew this was gone end badly but I didn't really care anymore. Things couldn't get worse than they already were.

James P.O.V
"You kissed me." I mistakenly admitted without acknowledging Cutie standing right behind me. Oh my god, what have I done. "Hold up, What." Cutie got from behind me and I opened my mouth to explain as his face frowned up, but nothing came out. I really hope he dont blow this out of proprtion because that kiss meant nothing, or so I think. I love Raheem and Cutie, and the difference between the two is that Raheem lost my trust and Cutie gained it. "Aw so we kissing our exs now." He looked me dead in my face and I turned in the opposite direction and inhaled my pump. What should I say? Nothing I said could make this sound right. "Yeah he kissed me and he loved it." Raheem winked and added with a grin plastered on his face. I just wish he would shutup for once. He making it hard for me to handle this situation well. "Nigga then how my dick taste." WHOA NOW WHOA, he had to put that private moment we shared just hours ago, out on blast. I know he mad and all but that's like a serious NO NO. "Cutie STOP." I looked at him and said. Him telling our business is a huge turnoff. "Naw you stop and don't touch me, we over. You know I ain't for that cheating shit." He smacked my hand down and I stood stunned as he hit Raheem and walked out the door. I heard him but I wasn't comprehending what he said. We can't be over, that was a big mistake. I really hate running after people when they don't want to be chased, but we had to talk this out. We can't just end our relationship so suddenly, I wasn't ready too. When he stomped out the front door I slightly touched him while flinching back as he swung his body around towards me and paused. "Im-" I couldn't even get it out as he mugged me for the longest. My lips start to quiver, and my eyes got watery, as he struck me a look of hate.  "Im sorry. Can you just listen to me." I asked as he walked away from me again. "You still kissing on him and you expect me to hear you out after that. I don't think so, I'm done." He made it clear for the second time that we were breaking up, but I still couldn't accept that. "So just like that, we over." I asked as he walked down the street to his car and I still followed. He said nothing as he got in his car and cranked it. "Its not my fault he kissed me." I stood in the car door way so he couldnt close it. "So whats next. Its not gone be his fault he fucked you to." I hate that I'm getting the vibe that he don't trust me when I know I'm very trustworthy. "Now you know I wouldnt do that." Now I really wish I wouldve told him after we had sex. "I knew, you wouldnt kiss him either." He tried turning it back around on that one subject and I wished he would let it go and believe in me, and that I wouldnt purposely decieve him. "I didnt, he kissed me." I explained for the millionth time. "Tell me some." He sighed and I said, "Anything." I stood patiently waiting to hear what he would ask. "Why the fuck was he even that close to yo face." I didnt say a word because this seemed unfixable all of a sudden. He kept raising his voice higher and I hate when people yell at me. This disscussion wasnt getting no better. "Can you move because I aint got time to be playing these games with you or that nigga." "No I'm not playing games. This wasn't my fault." I said unsure if I should stay put in this spot or let him go. "James move out my way. This been too damn much for me to sink in all at once. You and yo damn family—— crazy. I need some time to think to myself." I respected his wish and moved away from his car. "Can we atleast talk about this later." I yelled as he was pulling off. The tears I held finally fell as his car screeched off. I can't believe Raheem ruined what me and Cutie had. Our once potentially great relationship was now gone astray. I feel like beating Raheem ass right now. I'll never be with him again and he need to get that through his long ass head. I dried my eyes with my shirt and went back in the house to search around for him. He was in his room packing like he was moving. "Why did you do that." I pushed him hard enough for him to fall. "You got a whole girlfriend and a baby, but why can't you leave me alone and let me be happy." He jumped up and threw a picture of us from off his dresser across the room. “You sucked his dick." He repeatedly stated. “Raheem just let it go, what I did with my boyfriend is none of your business anyway.” He unexpectedly squeezed me into a hug. "I can't let that shit go. I love you." He whispered. He tried kissing me but I turned away each time. I don't understand why he would even want too after knowing what I did with Cutie. "Stop." I fought and fought, until he released me from his hold and since nothing could numb my broken heart, I hit him until my arms grew tired. "Bit please stop." He was crying more tears than I could ever imagine. His face was swollen like never before and I didn't no whether to feel sorry for him right now or have no sympathy at all. "I wish my parents would've never adopted you." I said before exiting. I chose to be cold hearted because he gets on my nerves. I hate that I still love him so much and I can't do nothing about it. "Get packed, were leaving." My mother stood at my door and demanded. "Where we going." I asked as I brought out my suit case from my closet. "Far away from here." I didn't need to hear no more, I just threw my things into a suit case and left most of it behind. From across the hall I heard my mother tell Raheem to finish packing. "No, Im staying." He said boldly. "No your not, lets go." She snapped but he was still standing where I left him. She took his bag and he snatched it away. "Im not going, so just leave without me." "You can't stay here." I knew he only did that because of what I said. I wanted to apoligize but I didnt know what to say. "Im sorry Ma but I think this best." He stated. He didnt dare look my way as she talked with him and it didn't bother me. "I love you son and I always will." She kissed his forehead after realizing that he was content with being here with the Devil. I stop waisting my attention on him, instead I dragged my bags down the stairs. We walked out to the car and my father jumped in front of it once we got in and buckled up. "Leave then. You wasn't nothing when I found you and you ain't gone be nothing without me. I payed for you." I jumped as the ring he threw hit the glass shield. Wow! I never realized how crazy my father is till now. This shouldn't have gotten to this point. We were once a happy family. There was nothing here that kept me from leaving. We arrived at the airport and ditched the car. This all looked planned out. My mother handed the man at the desk two tickets booking us to L.A. He directed us in the right direction and we rolled our bags up to security. The only person that I knew of that lived there was my grand pop. After we got through security we were good to go. I didn't believe we were really leaving until the plane took off. I was always frightened of planes so I slept the whole ride. Once the plane soared back to the ground, my mother was rocking me out of my sleep. "Huh, we there." I jumped up and unbuckled myself to get a good sight of the city. I love L.A because my grand pop is the funniest man I ever knew and I never experienced a bad trip coming down here. We got off the plane and there awaited my grand pop. I ran into his arms and he pat my back. "Look at my boy." He patted my back through the entire hug so I managed to pull away in between one of his pats. "Hey grand pop." I said trying to smile a little. "Boy who done beat yo ass." He asked swinging his cane at me. I didn't say much of nothing so he saw my uneasiness and switched the subject. "So what you been doing other than sprouting." He asked examining my height. I wasn't even tall, but I guess I am to him because its been a while. "None much." I shrugged.