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Closure

James P.O.V

I woke up and my messages were pilled to the max and for a loner like myself that wasn't normal. I yawned and looked at the screen and notice it was Cutie. I honestly forgot about calling him last night or maybe I was more scared and shy to hold a conversation with him when I really didn't know him all that well. I let my phone fully charge as I got ready for school. I'm surprised Raheem didn't wake me. I guess he figured I needed my space. Today I heard we were taking the practice ACT and lord have I been slacking. I thought less about it because I knew I'd be prepared for the real one. I got in the shower and covered my entire body with my dove soap and let the warm water rinise it off. I enjoyed being in the tub. I could stay until the water made my skin numb but I knew I couldn't so I got out rubbing my feet across the mat before crossing my robe around me and brushing my perly whites. I looked at the clock and rushed to moisturize my now ashy and pale skin. While trying to hurry and put on my uniform I got frustrated trying to place on my tie correctly. I never got the hang of it. This was Raheems job and I hated that I counted on him to do simple things like this because I didn't bother concentrating on how to learn how to do it. I tossed it across the bed and layed down with it. This the exact reason why I didn't favor this uniform policy. I don't get why we couldn't just go to a regular public school like normal kids, I'm sure they don't act worse than some of the students actions here. “Lets go, son.” My dad knocked. I huffed and threw it on any kind of way and hid how it looked with my jacket over it. “Okay I'm coming.” I grabbed my bag and headed out the door. The sun beamed brightly on my face as soon as I opened the door. I got in the car and me and Raheem didn't excange not even any usual eye contact, well he didnt. As always  he was back on his phone. What did I expect, maybe for him to have woken me up this morning, talked me out of the boundary I'd set between us, and intertwine my fingers with his as we sat in the car. Yeah that would of been nice. But instead I got silence, awkwardness filled the hot air. I became aggravated and annoyed for what I expected out of him. I know I'm being a brat but I guess he was tired of fighting to make me stay and I was tired of him constantly making reasons for me to regret and deny us from the start. Don't he get that.

Raheem

My heart started to pound against my chest as soon as Bit got in. I was holding on to any strength I had to avoid expressing how I felt because I'd speak my mind in a minute. But because he wanted to breakup but be together at the same time, ME, not being able to fully grasp ideally what that meant, I thought to back off. I scrolled down my news feed on Facebook to help me get through this car ride. “Baby what's up with your tie.” Mama Jen asked James. I laughed a little under my breath but didn't bother even looking over. “Nothing.” He said. “Raheem can you fix your brother tie.” “I got it.” He quickly lied. “Yeah he got it.” I pointed while still not looking towards him. “James let him fix it, we both know you or your father couldn't beat Ray Charles putting on a tie properly.” “Really Ma! I know what I'm doing.” I sighed and finally faced him. I knew moms wasn't gone Shutup about it so I grabbed hold to his tie and my eyes became mesmerized with my reflection inside his dark brown eyes. His eyelashes blinking thickly reminded me of some of the girls at school who died to have natural lashes like his so they'd go out to buy them. I never understood why extra hair on  your eyelids became a must factor for some girls.  “Thanks.” He quietly said. “Dont mention it, you know I got you." Damn. And here I was not being able to control my thoughts. He smiled a little and looked away which made me jump around inside. “Have a good day. And good luck on the test.” “Alright bye ma.” I was so busy watching James walk off into the building that I didn't notice Sam putting his arm around me. “Whats up fool. Cat got your tongue, ah nah Reina did yesterday. ” “Right when I somehow erase that thought from my mind his stupid ass would bring it up.” “Bruh get out my face.” I said pushing him towards some chick. “Excuse you.” She call herslf posing in that spot to buck him. “Shit excuse you whats yo number.” He said breathing down the girl neck. “Unh Unh, dont you go with Kim.” “Naw we broke up.” “You a damn lie. Hey Raheem.” She said glowing her eyes at me. “Whats up.” I nodded as she starred at me undressing me with her eyes. Haha I get that alot. They can't get enough but damn bit my baby and I'd take him over all these tryfling hoes. I leaned on a random locker glancing at his figure. “Damn.” I said. “You damn right nigga ama be all up in that ass like roh roh...” He said making me draw my attention from James and laugh at his stupitity. This mane was dancing around like a horse. Sometimes I think he be fronting about every fucking thing because if he was having sex he wouldn't be bragging about it all the damn time. “Shut yo ass up. She don't even want yo hoe ass.” “Nigga yo bitch want me I just didn't wanna tell you.” “You must got me mistaken because I'm single.” “Stop lying, you know you and Reina about to settle down.” I was waiting on it so I could go off on his ass. “Bruh I dont fuck with that bitch. I swear to god if you put that bitch names with mine even in a sentence... “You gone do what.” He asked not taking my tone serious I see. “Try me and you gone find out.” “Mane. What you be on in the morning that have you acting like a bitch.” He asked shrugging me. “Kim.” I said out of spite. “Nigga stop playing with me.” “Well stop playing with me.” I said walking off. “Ight be like that.” He yelled as I ran off to catch up with James. “So where my notes.” A random girl from my first period asked. “I don't know.” I said ignoring her. “What you mean you don't know.” She asked jumping in front of my every move. That shit was really annoying. She on a nigga ass about some notes on some shit she bout already knew. “Aye watch out.”  I slightly pushed her and her psyco ass did the craziest thing. She kissed me, like I didn't even know this hoe and we end up swooping spit. I'm not gone lie I pulled away later than expected and looked over her head at a hurt James. “You should of never did that shit.” I yelled. “I thought you liked me. Don't you like me?” A group of girls started chattering from a distance as she asked me that stupid ass question while wrapping her arms around me. “Hell Naw.” I said pulling her away and running after James. This the last thing I needed to happen. Out of breath I grabbed hold to him before he made it inside a bathroom stall. “Raheem no, just stop." He cried. “Bit I don't even know that girl, you gotta believe me." “Just like you didn't know me when we had relations, right. You just going around swobbing thots dna I see, but its cool.” He laughed as he looked off and talked. I could tell he was getting mad. “Im not even like that, come on now.” “Raheem you know what. I don't even care no more. You keep doing you and ama do me and that's that.” He said walking off like I was just gone let him end the conversation like that, now he know me. “Nah, that aint gone work.” I said pulling him back. “You know...I was saying the same thing when that girl was all over you.” “Damn I don't want that bitch, she kissed me.” The late bell rung and James tried to push me out his way. “Let me go. I really don't have time for this. It aint never your fault, own yo wrong damn. Im so tired of living...” “Ill smack the shit out of you. Dont start talking crazy, I dont wanna hear that.” I yelled in his face. I hated when he started talking like that. “You dont have too if you let me go, jackass." “Whats going on bruh.” Sam walked in with a joint in his hand. “Don't fucking worry about it.” “Nigga I ain't.” “Well shut the fuck up.” I said taking my frustration out on him. “What you wanna do.” He said as I got in his face. “Dont.” James said pulling on my arm. I saved him for the same reason I regretted putting hurt in bit eyes. It made me lose him. I walked out and followed behind him to class. “Damn can you stop running from me.” “Damn can you stop touching me, I'm trying to go to class and learn some.” “Alright.” I said releasing my hands. The only reason I let him go is  because people start gathering around and I didn't need they nosey ass in my business.