BESTFRIENDS

God's Plan

Raheem P.O.V

I been sitting in this hospital for two whole fucking months waiting patiently for James to surprise me but he just laid there like he did in the car. I hate to say that me and Sam been getting a lot closer. He come up here every now and then to check on James but I know he really checking in on me. What we doing just temporary. He just a good fuck every now and then to vent away from my pain. This place became my new home. I left during the day and spent the nights. Somebody had to be here when he woke up and that somebody was gone be me. "You should get some rest." My mother said placing her finger on my shoulder. "I slept yesterday." I said not looking back at her. She wouldn't understand what I'm going through. The person I love the most in my life dying on me and Im hurt that Im not able to withhold his place and do anything about it but sit still with a blank face waiting for my lifeless expression to become whole again. A lot of shit changed for the best and even more for the worse these past days.

2 months ago

It was a Sunday morning. Just only two days after we took bit to the hospital and pops making me go to church. I couldn't believe how he could still go on with a fucking service when his son just laying there. Mama Jen stayed and he made me go because he said I been there too much and needed to get some air. All the air I needed was in that room with James but don't nobody seem to understand that. When we got there I wanted to smack everyone who asked me was I okay or where was James. The nosiest people are for sure in the church. I took my seat way in the back and to be specific, last pew. No one sat all the way back here but I was making a difference. I hated being around all these fake ass smiles people flashed at me and the hugs. What's up with just a hey every now and then. Everybody want a fucking hug. "A church is a not museum for the Saints its a hospital for the Sinners." And on that note I got up and left. Even the word hospital sent me over the edge. I walked around just to spot my surroundings, hoping that beyond my eyesight I'd see bit in the distance. When I realized the service was over I eased my way back in and walked passed the alter and through a door that lead to my fathers office. I wasn't too quick to barge in because he was yelling at some boy. "So your the reason my son is in that hospital fighting for his life." "I didn't know he was gone do that. All I did was drove him home." "You and your kind beat him up too." "My kind. I can't believe you coming at me like this." "Well believe it get your ass out my church." My dad yelled. I heard all I needed, as soon as he walked out the door I layed him flat. He jumped up which was unexpected and punched my ass back. We were going head to head until pops yanked him off of me and held a gun to his head. "You really wanna take me there." He said through clenched teeth. Im like blown completely away right now that he even know what a gun look like let along holding one in the church. Cursing, guns, what's next drugs. He surprising me by the minute.

Present Monday Morning

"Son wake up, you got school." I looked up at James and kissed his forehead. I didn't feel like it but I knew this was our agreement if I was to spend the nights here. I went and took a shower before putting on my uniform. It felt good when I didn't have to wear a collier all the time. We could wear anything we wanted at the new school I was going too. It was different and a lot worse as Sam would tell it. My first couple of days here I sat alone, worked alone, and didn't talk as much. A lot of people said I was stuck up but I didn't give a fuck because I didn't come here for their pleasure. I came her for James. If I had a choice I would've dropped out by now but my parents weren't accepting that. "Aye hold up there." I nodded at Sam as he stopped me. "How he doing." "The same." I said hoping my words would be wrong any minute now. "You know he gone get better right." He assured me everyday I walked these same halls looking lonesome and feeling melancholy. "I hope so." "But in the mean time you stuck with me." He said grinning while pulling his arm around me. I still think I'm insane for secretly being with him but it was the only way I got through most of my days. I rolled my eyes and followed him to the his car. As he unbuttoned my pants like any other time I closed my eyes visioning that it was James making me feel this rush of pleasure. "Ah." I climaxed and like any other time he killed my vision when I opened my eyes up. I stuffed my junk back in my pants and opened the door. "What you doing we not finished." Sam said. "Look I ain't up for this right now." At least that's what I wanted to think. I didn't wanna feel none for Sam when James awoke so I didn't let him get that close. We walked back into the building and headed to class.