WHY DO YOU EVEN CARE ABOUT ME?

SHE IS GONE

Logan's pov:

She is gone! It's been one month since she died. We never found her body. All of us are so sad, but especially Scott. All this weeks he is locked in his room. He is not eating , he is not sleeping and he can't stop crying. I know he lost his wife but I can't watch him been like that! We need him. The kids need him. At least he should think about them. He is the role model for the most of them. They can't see him like that! I woke up in the middle of the night and I went to the kitchen for a beer and I saw him there. "Hey , what are you doing here?" "I just wanted some water , I 'll go back in." "Wait Scott!" "What?" "You can't live like that for the rest of your life?" "And what I'm supposed to do? Jean was the only close person I had ! I lost Alex, then my parents and now Jean! I have no one , can't you understand! I am alone!" And with that he fell to the flor and he started crying. "Hey, you are not alone , you have Professor , Ororo , Kurt , Me...!" "You?" "Yeah" "Why do you even care about me ? You hate me.." "No I don't" "When Jean was alive you did so why you don't now?" I don't know what I have to say... He is looking at me , he is waiting for an answer . Some seconds pasted and now he is going away saying "I was sure". Two more weeks pasted like that. He was only at his room thinking about her. I am going to Professor, he can't be like that forever! " Professor?" "Oh Logan, come in. I everything okay? " "No it isn't. We have to help Scott!" "I tried to talk to him but he is so broken I can't help him ." "But we must do something " "Why you don't go to talk to him?" "I tried but I'll try one more time" "Okay Logan" I should go now or... no I'll go now! *Knock * Knock "Who's there?" "It's me Logan . Can I come in?" "Why??" "I just wanna to talk" "Okay come in" he is lying on his bed. He was a photo of them in his hand. "What do you want to talk about Logan?" "Listen me out Scott, Jean is gone. She is not coming back. You must move on. You deserve to move on. She made her choice. I know how much you loved her but.." "No you don't ! None of you do! I must went there not her she must were alive but she isn't because of me. I could have save her but I didn't! It's all my fault!" "No it isn't Scott ! Don't do that to yourself , don't! " "Don't do what? What Logan? " "Don't blame yourself! It wasn't your fault!" "Yeah it was! When Stryker was controlling me we had a fight. I hit the wall and the barrier broke. That's why she died!..." "Oh .." "Now you see! It was my fault I know that! Now please get out of my room!" "But Scott!" "I said get out!" so I left. "Professor?" "What is it Logan? What did he said" I am explaining to him. "I didn't knew that Logan!" "None of us knew but what we will do now?" " Go to your room now and we will see tomorrow okay?" " Okay professor good night" " Good night". I am in my room and I don't know what I must to do...
It is 7a.m. Scott is usually getting up at 6:00 so I am going to his room to talk to him. He is not here, maybe he is in the kitchen. He is not there either. I am looking for him everywhere but he is not at the school . I am going to Professor. "Professor ! Professor!" "What happened again Logan it's 7 a.m. " "Scott is not here" "What do you mean he is not here " " He is not at school I searched everywhere!" " Are you sure?" " Yes I am. And his motorbike isn't in the garage. Can you find him with Cerebro?" "I'll try. Lets go " Now Professor is trying to find him with Cerebro but he can't. Where the fuck is he? I am worrying about him! " I am gonna find him" "How?" "With the traditional way. I'll take his car!" I took his car and I am looking for him. An hour left and nothing. I am alone in a road and and I am seen a motorbike. Is that Scott's? Yeah it is "Scott ?! Scott?!" I saw a body full of blood hit on the rocks. Is that Scott ? I am running there and I am understand that is Scott! "Scott ! Scott! Answer to me Scott please!" But I am not getting an answer. I put him in the car and I start for the hospital. I have him in my arms and I am getting into the hospital " Help please , someone to help him please!" two nurses are coming and taking him into the operating room. I am calling Ororo. "Ororo I need you to come now to the hospital !" "That happened Logan are you okay?" "I found Scott! Please just come and I will explain everything!" "Okay Logan we are coming" A nurse came and gave me a note. It is Scott's. They found it in this pocket. It is saying

"If someone find this that means you found my body too. After Jean's death my life is compete empty. She was the only person I had. And I lose her because of me . It was my fault so I don't want my life. At least now I can be with her , if I go to heaven! I just want to care of the kids. I don't want them to get hurt. I want Charles to take my books, Bobby my car and Logan my motorbike. I know how much they liked them. And if Charles agree with that I want Ororo to take my place. And the last thing I want , is you to remember Jean, she deserved it! Since the day I met her I remember her trying to do the word a better place for everyone! She was a real hero and that's one of the reasons why I loved her. She was an amazing person, a good friend and a great wife! I don't want something more. Good bye!"

Scott Matthew Summers

My eyes began to tear. I can't believe he thought of me ! Me! I can see Ororo and Charles coming to me "Logan are you crying" "Read this" and I gave them the note. Ororo stared crying and Charles is trying to stay calm. I am trying too but I can't. I can see a nurse. I am running to her and I am asking if he is alright. She is not sure yet. The surgery is going to be more than 7 hours. 7 hours pasted. I am waiting with Professor, Ororo had do go to the school. A nurse is coming saying " Are you here for Scott Matthew Summers?" "Yes ! Is he okay?" "He is in the room 534 you can go see him" I want to run but I can't. I am not alone here. We are getting in to the room. I am looking at Scott but he is not awake. " I'll be there until he wake up Professor. I can't leave him alone!" "We won't I'll wait here with you Logan !"