Everything is Suppose to be Perfect

First Day Feelings All Over Again

Your first day of school is always awful, it's uncomfortable, weird, strange, etc. Everything seems to go wrong. I'm so happy that it only happens once a year and only for 17 years of you life. In my case, it's 18 times, not 17 like everyone else or 13 for the people who don't go to college. Everyone stared at me and Arlen, they seemed kind of shocked that we walked to school together. I walked up to the Fun-tastic Four. It felt weird to be treated as if I was cool.

"Hey! Why were you walking with little miss perfect?" Noah asked me

"Hi! Um, we both took the bus today." I said looking somewhat uncomfortable

"Why are you so nervous? And why are you dressed like a State Farm employee?" Noah asked looking me up and down

"Wait! Oh my gosh, I knew it! You have a crush on little miss perfect and you're going to tell her!" He screamed loud enough for the other 3 Fun-tastic Four to hear. I forgot to introduce the Fun-tastic Four, there is Arlen and Noah like I mentioned and the other 2 are Ethan Guillaume and Liam Cadman, they had so discernable personality but they are hot. I always thought they were dating but I wasn't close enough to them to know for sure.

"What!? No! Be quiet!" I screamed while covering his mouth

"I knew it! You're an awful liar!" He said pointing at me, I really am.

"I-" I was about to deny that I have a crush on me (Wow, never thought I'd say that) but then I thought about it and decided to say I did have a crush on me so I could hang around him without it seeming weird.

"Ugh! Fine, I do have a crush on Arieanna but why wouldn't I? She's smart, reliable, passionate, dedicated, the list goes on."

I spent the ENTIRE day listening to every single embarrassing crush story that the Fun-tastic Four could think of. They all admit to having had a crush on Amity the first week of school but getting over it when they thought she was dating Buddy but then he came out as asexual and aromatic but by then they had already gotten over her.

Finally school was over and I immediately went to talk to Arlen.

"How was your day?"

"It was fine," He said with an unmotivated look on his face

"Are you okay?" I asked looking down at his face

"It's just-" He paused for a second "Your life is so perfect, your friends are perfect, your moms are perfect, everything in your life is so perfect." He said as he sat down on a park bench.

"I can tell you one thing about my life that isn't perfect, one struggle I have faced." I said as I sat down next to him

"When I was 9 years old, my parents and siblings were deported. I had just come home from school and they were just gone. I remember sitting there and crying. When child services came, I asked them if they had come to take me away too, they did. I was in awful placements all the time, more bad then good. I remember my very first night at some random woman's house, she already had 6 other kids and the next morning I woke up to find my foster sister packing her bags and entering a car with some grown man. Everyone spent weeks completely focused on her. I felt so ignored, I had never lived in a world where people didn't pay attention to me. My next placement was an awful woman who took out all her built up anger about her divorce on me, she'd only fostered me to have some company but obviously I didn't bond right away with her and she was really mad about it. Every time I spoke she'd scream at me to stop, she locked me in a pitch black closet if I ever talked back, I learned one thing from living with her, never speak if you're not wanted, and that no one would ever love me like how they'd love their biological kid. Pretty soon I was 11 years old, nobody wants a pre-teen, but Sadie and Victoria gave me a chance. I remember the first night at their house, they had a basket full of things and they gave me a duffle bag to put my things in so I wouldn't have to carry them in trash bags and I was finally okay. That night when Sadie and Victoria tucked me in I asked them if I would live with them for a few years and then someone would come to take them away. They told me that no one would take them away and that they'd be sure of it. In that moment, I knew I was finally safe, in a world that treated me like garbage or as if I didn't exist, they didn't."

"I'm sorry, I- I didn't know you had gone through all this." He apologized. I gasped very dramatically

"You think smart girls don't struggle?" I dramatically asked. We both laughed. I never really felt like people had ever listened to me, that was until today.