I was sound asleep when I started to have another nightmare from the Red Room again.
The sound of footsteps echoed through the abandoned warehouse. I placed my rifle in position and watched as a few SHIELD agents walked in. 2 or 3 at most. "Did you get it?" a man asked. "Yes. It's right here." He said and uncovered a small box taking out 8 needles. "What is it?" a woman asked. "Some type of serum, Hydra has been trying to get their hands on." the man said.
I lined up my gun and pulled the trigger. The man dropped to the ground dead. The woman screamed. I shot her in the arm and left leg. I jumped down from the ceiling I was in and right in front of her. I had a red mask covering the bottom of my face and tattoo's covering my left arm. She looked at me in fear, "Who are you?" I looked her straight in the eye and said, "Летний солдат." (The Summer Soldier) and raised my gun against her head and-
I jumped awake hyperventilating. I got up slowly without waking Loki and walked to the bathroom. I took my shirt off and traced every one of my tattoos. My arm was covered from my shoulder to my wrist with them. I never showed anyone them before. Not even Loki knows. I cover it up with my sleeves. I wore a shirt when I was with him that night, that's how he doesn't know. I am ashamed of them. They remind me that I was in that place.
I drank some water and put my shirt back on. I walked back to bed and saw Loki sitting up. "Are you alright darling?" he asked quietly. "I'm fine." I looked over at Peter sound asleep. I smiled and kissed his forehead. I walked back to bed and laid down. "He's so peaceful..." I whispered cuddling into Loki's side keeping my eyes on Peter. "He is," he said. I turned my head to him and kissed him. "Good night," I said closing my eyes. "Good night," he said. I smiled and then fell asleep.
The next morning I woke up to the smell of Bacon and Eggs. I got out of bed and walked into the kitchen. The avengers and my parents sat on the couch and Peter sat on the counter helping Loki cook. I walked up behind Loki and wrapped my arms around him, "Good morning." I said in a raspy voice. "Morning. I made breakfast," he said. "I know. It looks great." I said turning to Peter. He held his hands out and I picked him up. I placed Peter in the highchair and brought him some food. He started eating it. I sat beside him and started to eat my food.
"Hey, Mary? What happened last night? I heard you crying." Thor said. "I wasn't... crying. I don't cry." I said defensively. Bucky and Natasha looked at me concerned but I gave them a look in which they looked away. "I'm always here for you Mary," Thor said. I slammed my fist down on the table, "I'M FINE THOR!" I yelled. Everyone sat there shocked as Peter started crying. "I'm sorry Peter..." I said getting up and running to my room. "MARY!" Bucky yelled after me. I ran into my room and slammed the door.
Bucky's POV:
Peter continued to cry and tried to get out of his highchair to get to Mary. "MOMMA!" He yelled crying. I picked him out of his highchair and carried him to Mary's room. "Mary?! Peter wants his mom." I said into the door. "I scared him..." she cried. "MOMMY! I not scared..." he said trying to squirm down. Mary opened the door and grabbed Peter out of my arms hugging him tightly. "I'm sorry..." she repeated while hugging Peter. "It ok momma," he said gently. Mary kissed his head.
Mary's POV:
I put Peter down beside me and hugged my dad. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to lash out like that..." I said ashamed. "It's okay Mary. Sometimes we just need to release some anger," he said kissing my forehead. I smiled and hugged him again tightly. "I'm gonna go to the gym. Can you watch him?" I asked. He nodded and I told Peter I was going downstairs for about an hour. He said okay and I headed down to the gym. Nobody was there so I took off my shirt and put on some good footwear. I started punching the punching bag hard. I was so angry. I punched every time I remembered something bad about my past.
"You're useless!"
"You have no purpose in this world!"
"You only serve the Red Room and Hydra. No one else."
"Hail Hydra."
"The Summer Soldier has more assassinations than anyone we've ever seen."
"KILL HER!"
"SHOOT HER"
"You will do this. You have no other options."
I punched so hard I punched the bag right off the hook. It hit the wall and exploded everywhere. I took a few deep breaths and started crying silently. "Mary?" I heard someone say. I turned around and saw Loki standing there. "What?" I said coldly. "You- You have tattoos?.." he said in surprise. "I used to get 1 tattoo every time I killed one person," I said putting my shirt on looking down. "It was a way to tell what my kill count was." I said ashamed. He looked at me in shock. "I should go back to Peter," I said. He nodded with tears in his eyes as I quickly walked out of the room.
Now Loki knew...
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Your tattoos:
*Pretend its multiple, not just one big one, and that it goes to your lungs*
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