"Soulmates"

Chapter 16 👨🏻‍🏫❤👮🏼‍♀️

Raquel's point of view:

It's been 3 days since we returned to our house, and 3 days since Sergio is distant with me, and I don't know why. He brings me everything I ask him to bring me, he helps me to do everything but he is no longer the same with me. He spends the whole day locked in his office, and when I open the door, he quickly hides the books he was reading, and besides now he's in his office. I really miss him a lot, but I don't know ... I don't know what to do anymore. It's dark now, I settle on the bed and wait for him to arrive. He arrives, he lies down next to me on the bed. I give him a kiss, I know it's the hormones that drive me crazy, but I miss him so much that I couldn't contain myself, and I threw myself in his arms, and I started to kiss him, and ... he pushed me away.

Sergio: please Raquel, stop! I don't want to hurt you or the baby! (He said a little annoyed)

Me: eh? What do you mean you don't want to hurt us !?

Sergio: you're not going to understand me Raquel, and it's better that we talk in the morning, it's late now, you have to sleep Raquel, you have to rest.

Me: what's the matter, Sergio? Since we came home, you're not the same!

He avoids my gaze, I take his face between my hands, but he continues to avoid that our eyes meet, I notice that he has tears in his eyes.

Me: Sergio! Look at me.

He looks me straight in the eye, and a tear runs down his cheek.

Me: what's the matter, Sergio? You are really scaring me?

He looks away and stands up.

Sergio: nothing.

He walks towards the door. I get up to follow him.

Sergio: Raquel please don't follow me, I need space and time. (Said his back to me)

He opens the door, he comes out and I start to cry loudly, I want to help him but I don't know what he has!

Sergio's point of view:

As soon as I close our bedroom door, I hear Raquel cry loudly, oh no what did I do, I can't leave her like this, she must not stress, she is pregnant, fuck! If something happens to the baby because of me, I won't forgive myself anymore, and besides, I can't and won't leave Raquel like this!
I open the door and find Raquel on the floor crying, no no no ...
I run to her.

Me: Raquel, Raquel! Forgive me please ! I'm an asshole I don't deserve you! Please Raquel forgive me! (I say taking her in my arms)

She hugs me tight.

Me: shhh Raquel please don't cry. (I say crying)

Raquel: hug me ... tight please ... don't leave me Sergio ... (she said crying)

Me: shh I'm here, I'm here. (I say stroking her hair) I'll never leave you. Please forgive me.

Oh what did I do! I'm just an asshole!
After 5 minutes (the longest 5 minutes of my life), Raquel started to calm down.

Me: come on, come on it's better that we sit on the bed, we don't stay on the floor, come on my love. (I say helping her get up)

We sit on the bed, Raquel still hugs me, I continue to stroke her hair, I dare not speak, I let her decide when we have to talk.

Raquel's point of view:

I'm in Sergio's arms, I'm really glad he didn't leave me alone in this state, if he hadn't come back I'm sure I was going to have a panic attack.

Me: please Sergio, tell me what's wrong?

Sergio: it's ... nothing.

Me: Sergio ...

Sergio: I don't want to worry you Raquel!

Me: and in your opinion, now what are you doing to me?

Sergio: but ...

Me: SERGIO!

Sergio: okay, okay I'm afraid ... (he said softly and very low)

Me: what are you afraid of my love? (I say stroking her cheek)

He starts to cry, there he really worries me.

Me: Sergio? (I say wiping her tears)

Sergio: I already told you that when I was little, I was a sick child, AND I AM AFRAID THAT OUR CHILD WILL HAVE THE SAME DISEASE AS ME! (He said screaming and crying) I don't want him / her to suffer, I don't want him / her to undergo what I have undergone! (He said softly)

Oh I never thought of that! I start to cry.

Sergio: and that's not all! (He said crying loudly) we also have an inherited degenerative disease in our family, Elmer's muscular dystrophy, the disease that killed mum and that was going to kill Anders, if we have a daughter she can probably have it if I am carrier because the disease is on the X chromosome!

I hug him and he starts to cry louder and I keep crying with him.

Sergio: I don't want our child to suffer! I don't want him / her to deprive himself of his / her child like me! I don't want her to go degenerative like her uncle and her grandmother, if it was a girl!

Me: Sergio ... we need to do some analysis.

Sergio: no, no please Raquel. (He said crying and kissing my stomach)

Me: why ?

Sergio: If ... if the tests give negative results, the ... the doctors will force you to have an abortion, especially the baby have Elmer's muscular dystrophy! And I don't want ... I don't want them to kill our child!

I know this decision is difficult and I too love my child too much, but I do not want to see him suffer later, but ... but since Elmer's muscular dystrophy is on the X chromosome, if Sergio is a carrier, that wants say that the disease will evolve afterwards! that ... that means that Sergio can be sick! And if he is sick, he gives that if we have a daughter, she will also be sick! And Sergio is going to die and the doctors are going to force me to have an abortion! And I will lose two of the most precious people in my life! No no no no..

Me: Sergio, you absolutely have to do the analyzes for the Elmer's muscular dystrophy!

Sergio: no!

Me: Sergio if you are a carrier that means you are sick! You only have one X chromosome! If you have the one in which your mother carried the disease, it means that you are sick!

Sergio: yes, you're right, I didn't think of things from this side.

Me: I know, Sergio tomorrow, we'll do the analyzes, I don't want to ... I can't lose you, (I say, stroking his cheek) I can't lose you! (I say stroking my belly)

Sergio: Raquel ...

Me: Sergio tomorrow we'll do the analyzes, that's all!

Sergio nods and I hug him, I absolutely can't lose them.