Time gone by

What now

I wake up the next morning and check my phone there are 10 missed calls from Seb. I quickly get up and ring him back.
"Seb, sorry I was asleep what's wrong?"
"Chris, he got into a car accident last night he is in the hospital"
"What? Is he okay?"
"He is stable but he hasn't woke up yet"
"Omg. I'll be there as soon as I can"
I get dressed and rush out of the door. I make my way to the hospital and find Seb. He shows me to Chris's room. His brother Scot is sat by his bed side.
"Hi, you must be Abbie?"
"Yeah hi, your Scot right?"
"Yeah I am"
"Is he okay?"
"Doctors say he is stable but he hasn't woken up yet so we are just waiting"
"What happened?"
"He was in a cab on the way home and it got hit by a drunk driver."
"Omg"
"I'm just going to pop home for clean clothes and things are you okay to sit with him?"
"Of course"
Scot leaves and I sit by Chris's bedside. He is covered in bruises and cuts. I take his hand in mine "come on chris, open those beautiful blue eyes. I can't loose you. Please"
I was still mad at him but right now it just wasn't important. He needed to be okay. He just had to be.

3 days later

Chris still hasn't woken up, the doctors say it's his bodies way of healing. I haven't left him for more then an hour. His mum and dad flew in and they are currently back at there hotel, getting some rest and updating everyone back in Boston. Seb is dealing with the press, they are like vultures wanting to know the full story. Lily is trying to take care of me and seb, but she is pregnant and we both know she needs to be resting and not stressing out. Seb stops by everyday for a few hours to get an update.
I'm sat here just holding his hand and staring at him. He has to wake up. He just has too.
I must have nodded off because I startled awake by beeping on the monitor, doctors come rushing in and push me out of the way. His brother and mum come running in, I go to stand by them. We here the doctors "he is crashing"
I start crying "no, no please"
We are pushed out of the room while they work on him. Scot is holding Lisa as she sobs over her son. I ring Seb and let him know what's happening. He rushes to the hospital. As soon as I see him, he rushes over to me, I collapse in his arms.
"Seb I can't do this again" I cry out
He holds me close "he is going to be okay Abbie I promise"
"I'm in love with him Seb. He can't leave me"
He hugs me tight.
We all sit patently outside the room, Lisa has her arm around me and we are comforting each other. The doctor comes out after what feels like forever.
"Miss Capuano?"
"Yes, is my son okay?"
"He is, we got him back and he is stable. He had a clot and we removed it in time"
Lisa throws her arms around the doctor "thank you"
I sit down and cry. He was okay.
"You can see him but just 2 at a time okay"
Lisa and Robert go in. I feel myself breathing heavily and I'm gasping. Seb looks at me
"Abbie are you okay?"
I shake my head "I need some fresh air"
I walk outside and collapse onto the floor. I'm crying so hard. This is my fault, If I had just listened to him he wouldn't have got into that cab and he would be okay. It's like any person I love ends up in a hospital. Seb comes over to me and helps me up. He pulls me over to a bench and hugs me "he is okay Abbie"
"This is my fault Seb"
"No it's not, how is this your fault?"
"He wanted to talk, if I would have just listened then he wouldn't have gotten into that cab"
I'm crying so hard it's hurting my chest.
"It's like the people I fall in love with are just doomed."
"No. Abbie this is not your fault. This was a stupid drunk drivers fault and he will get what he deserves"
Once I have calmed down, I go back inside. Lisa and Robert come out and they tell me to go in. I go in alone.
I sit next to his bed and hold his hand "chris? I'm so sorry. I should have talked to you that night and maybe this wouldn't have happened. You told me once that I wasn't destined to be alone but I think maybe I am. Because your the second guy I have fallen in love with and your here. I'm not good for you. I tried to fight this but I can't anymore because I love you and I think you are my soulmate. Maybe I am lucky enough to have two. But I can't stay. Please wake up soon." I kiss his head and walk away.
I walk out of the hospital and back to the apartment. I pack up a bag and drive to lily. She isn't home but I have a key so I drop Ellie off and a note explaining where I'm going and why and asking her to take care of Ellie while I'm gone. I promise her I'll be back for the wedding and the birth of the baby. But I just need some space.
After I head off to the airport, I buy a ticket to England and I board my plane. Seeing chris in that hospital bed just bought everything back. I need some time and some space to think. And I think home is the perfect place to do that.