My Stepbrother secret obsession

We Are Using Others To Hurt Each Other.

When Tori rejoined me in the room, I had already changed into my pyjamas and had brought out something comfy for her to change into too.

With my eyes closed, I sensed her footsteps while she roams around the room until she turned off the lights and hopped onto the bed, pulling the duvet cover over her, like me.

"You were standing by Leigh's door for five minutes." She said in the dark, taking me off guard; I choked again.

Then the side lamp came up, emitting a dimming light around the room.

"There is bottled water on the nightstand by your side." She reminds me worriedly while I suffer to control my jammed throat for the second time this evening.

Earlier I had saved the rest of the water I fetched from the fridge before mounting to the first floor, into my bedroom.

I sit up, grab the bottle and gulp half of it, stalling deliberately, hoping she won't repeat what I have no answer for.

Was she sneaking on me?

"Have you been spying on me?" It was a weak attempt to change the subject.

I try not to look at her, afraid my mastery of disguise was now going awry. But the emotions I was experiencing right now, are hard to restrain. My mouth won't close, my gaze stuck on nothing in particular and my eyes won't blink. I wrap my arms around myself to steady the crushing emotion that was amplifying in my chest.
I could feel my body rocking to and fro, I was dizzy while seated, and my breathing was accelerating.

"Oh my God, you and him?" She gasps in shock. If I wasn't broken and incapacitated to look over to her, I would have sworn she climbed off the bed because I felt the mattress beneath me shift.

"You are in love with him." She uttered to herself, somewhere around the dark room. "How can I be blind? You said you weren't ready for any kind of relationship since your last. It was him. He was the one who broke your heart."

She came and sat before me, her face contorted in confusion, when she demands, "Ava tell me."

I scoffed weakly and look down at my shaky hands.

From my faint reaction, she had connected the dots.

"Fuck me." She gasped again. I could feel her cavilling gape drilling through my bones and I waited for them to absolve me from her judgements. Her silence made me feel small, it raises the guilt I thought I'd buried for years, to the point it reminded me of the risks and stupidity of my choices. Guilt for wanting someone I can't have, I shouldn't have.

"I-I am going to sleep." My voice strained, after numerous attempts to work down the lump in my throat.

"Ava, you can't-you can't." She shakes her head and a knot formed in my chest.

With flared nose and a murderous glare at her, I repeated, "Now! I am sleeping now!"

With that, I didn't delay burying myself under the covers of my comforter and drifting into night terrors, where there was a clear vision of the threats ahead of me.

***

When I woke up in the morning, I was the only one on the bed, Tori wasn't in the room.

I made sure to check the toilet before I can panic, but there wasn't anything there too.

Necessary panicked and barefoot, in my silly pyjama, I emerge to my bedroom, with the only intention of finding my best friend, who didn't seem to have taken the news very well, as Evie did, but as soon as I came out of my room, I was captivated by the sweet melody coming from the slightly opened door opposite mine.