Depths of Hell

Ch 4

⚠️WARNING ⚠️ this chapter contains extreme depressive thoughts and mentions of abuse, mentions of a panic attack. This might not be suitable for all people, again this is the only warning your getting.

Older Raven POV
If I had listened to Luna maybe I wouldn't of made all those mistakes that I did. Maybe I would've been a better person than who I was. Maybe I would actually find what I wanted in life. But no point dwelling on the last

Younger Raven POV
I held onto Luna tightly as she ran her hands through my dark hair. I never had this affection with her, she was always cold and distant. Kind of like now Brittany used to be before she warmed up to me. It was weird having the person who was comforting me be Luna but it felt...okay none the less.

I looked at as the door opened again, Brittany stood there slightly shocked before she sighed and walked over to us. Luna have her a small smirk.

"Mad that I'm stealing your little buddy's attention?" She teased. Brittany scoffed before pushing herself onto the small hospital bed as she moved me so I was sitting on top of them. I sighed as my head was still on lunas chest. My legs were on Brittanys.

"I'm sorry you had to see that" Brittany finally said. Me and Luna both looked at her and at the same time asked.

"Which one?" She gave us a hard stare before rolling her eyes.

"Me yelling at mom...I don't know what came over me" She felt bad, I wasn't really surprised at her being upset. She was usually upset after she felt like she had done something wrong.

"Not your fault Brit" Luna answered, with a shrug. That was before mom came back only 4 hours later. She looked to be slightly drunk with a tint of alcohol in her breath. She was never a heavy drinker so it wasn't a surprise she wasn't blackout drunk.

"Get up" She told me and Brittany. We looked at each other almost immediately and stood up rather quickly. I almost fell off the bed but I regained strength and stood straighter. Mom came over and stood next to Luna.

She stared at Luna with hatred.

"What the fuck! What were you thinking!? That wasn't meant for you! It was meant for him! We could've avoided this situation if you wouldn't of jumped infront of him!"

I stood behind Brittany, my heart was hurting. I grabbed onto her around her waist and held onto her. Trying my best not to cry. I buried my head in her shirt.

"Get up Luna it's the least you could do for me, after you've ruined all my plans, now we have to keep the kid around" She hissed. Luna got up surprisingly without hesitation and difficulty.

Our mom grabbed Lunas upper arm roughly and started to drag her out of the room. Me and Brittany hurried behind them, now I knew it was my fault.

Luna almost died because of me. Mom wanted me dead, now anyone else but me. Why? What did I do to deserve this? I wondered in the way home, leaning my head against the window. I had kept myself from crying for too long that when I got into my room I broke.

That's what I was...broken. Beyond repair broken. People looked at our family as broken. They say so many problems with us and they were

Brittany judged everyone no matter what it was she would judge them. Luna was just a cold bitch who only cared about herself and she was into doing so much dark magic. Especially hexing. It was her specialty you could say. Our mom, well I don't need to explain that.

And me? I was broken in a different way from the others. Instead of taking that sadness and grief and depression and turning it into anger. I ignored it, bottled it up until it exploded and I got overwhelmed. Too overwhelmed that I took it and I didn't something irrational. So irrational that it wasn't funny.

"Why? Why am I still here...? I can't control my anger and all I bring to this so called family is bad luck. I caused Luna to go to the hospital and then get yelled at. She didn't deserve that..."

I tried to control my crying but it wasn't working. I felt my breathing becoming rapid. I was panicking, I needed to calm down. I couldn't do this. I sobbed quietly, I couldn't let them hear me. They don't understand...nobody would ever understand.

"Why am I still here!?" I cried out.

As I said before this chapter is not suitable for everyone and that's okay. I don't mean to trigger anyone, if you have dealt with this. Just know that I am so proud of you and I am always hear for you. If you've thought about it, please don't do it. I am so proud of how fair you have come and I believe you can keep going. I love you guys so much