Depths of Hell

Chapter 8

A/N reread the last chapter guys. Love you and hope you enjoy
Sometimes when I see my girls on the street I imagine them as my sisters and I wonder if I could ever kill a women. I don't think I can. I cant do that. That's against everything I stand for but what is it exactly that I stand for. I dont know anymore.

Once the numbness hit me a couple days ago it wouldn't stop. And it's not that I don't feel anything I just don't care enough to focus on it. Everything hurts. Training is becoming more aggressive and painful. But I expect that.

Everything is to be expected and nothing can be a surprise. I cant be caught off guard. Not now. Not ever.

Opening my window hurts my shoulders now. I sit on the roof, staring at the night sky and wishing, willing my body to let me feel this moment. Things haven't been the same between myself. I'm at constant war with myself.

"Raven." A soft voice calls through my door. I recognize that voice. Brittany. She knocks one last time before opening the door. I can feel her eyes on me before her footsteps walk towards the open window.

"Raven, what're you doing?" She asks. There's no fear just calmness which really makes me feel weird. I shrug.

"Mom told me about your training. About...how—"

"I don't want to talk about it Brittany." I snapped harshly. Harsher than I intended but I don't care. I cant Care.

"Okay, we won't talk about it." She stops talking for a Moment. Her eyes are watching me.

"Can I sit with you?" I shrug again. I hear her crawl out the window and sit beside me. Her cheerleading uniform is still on from school even though we got home 2 hours ago. I eyed her before glancing away once she caught my eye.

"The stars look beautiful." I nodded at her. She caught on that I dont want to talk.

Stars are just one of those things that leave overtime. It's a constant thing where they are gone and then come back before they are gone again. But I can't allow myself to dwell on the stars lifestyle.

"Things change raven. But you can't allow that change to effect you negatively."

"It already did."
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"GET UP"
"GET UP"
"GET UP."
Her voice rings in my ears as I struggle to push myself up off the cold floor. It's damp too so slippery. I almost Fall directly onto my face.

"You're weak. How the hell are you going to take over a kingdom without strength. Nobody will respect you. You are either fearful or feared."

My ears are ringing as I throw my final punch. She lands on the ground and I think I've won but she sweeps my legs from beneath me. My head cracks on the ground, my skull is throbbing. Things are happening too fast yet everything feels slow. I know where she is but I can't react in time. She drops ontop of me and elbows me in the face.

My arms fall to my sides. My fave completely open for her mutilation.

Pain. I can feel it soaring through me. My face, my ears, my legs, my arms my chest. It's everywhere. She watches me from afar, waiting for me to regain consciousness. My eyes open slowly and I begin to lift my body up before she kicks me onto my knees.

My hand holds my stomach.

"Raven, you need to stand. Standing means winning. Lying down is losing. Are you a loser or a winner?"

I'm a kid.
I want to shout but my mouth won't open. She delivers the final blow that send me completely to the ground.

I lie there for a long time. Hearing the sound of her car drive away.

I'm walking home tonight.