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Chapter Four

Pursuing God and fully surrendering your life to Him is the best decision you have ever made in your entire life. Serving Him and His people gave you not just but also joy, an unexplainable joy that you have never experienced before. You are not dating someone but you feel complete and contented. You never imagined that you will get to experience the true meaning of unconditional love.

All my life, as a born and raised Catholic, I thought I knew God but every day I get to know Him a little more, I realized that I never knew Him.

I am so thankful for the people God put in my life. He surrounded me with people who aren't perfect but who encouraged me to continue knowing and pursuing our heavenly father.

Head knowledge about Him is not enough to walk with Him, it's not an easy journey, it's an uphill battle and it's a choice I have to make every day. When my heart got circumcised, that's when I was able to completely surrender all the areas of my life to Him.

When I got to know God, I asked Him why did I not know Him during my high school years, maybe my decisions were different, but then I realized, God finds us when we badly needed Him and our hearts are ready to fully accept Him.

I received my salvation at the age of twenty-eight, and have gone through so much, in my career, my love life, my family. And it made me wonder, maybe if I knew Him then, I never would've completely understood what life is with Him in it. I never would've pursued Him at that time because I wasn't ready.

He found me at the right time. In His right time.

There were moments in my life even when I was with God that I wanted to give up, just let the world take me again, but life without God is something I don't want to go through again. I healed because He healed me. I survived because He sustained me.

Even now that I follow Him, I still fail, I almost lost my desire to pursue Him and serve Him but God never fails me. He picked me up and made me experience how amazing His grace is.

He makes me live not a storm-free life but a stormproof one, that no matter what happens, regardless of what I will go through, I can face another day with confidence and assurance that I am not alone in my battles because I have a God who rescues me. I know He will never forsake me.

Now, I am currently an active member of His church, serving His people, leading a bible study group, discipling young professionals and hopefully, soon I can get to disciple students too.

God never wasted any of my pain, He used it to strengthen me and as a testimony to others that who I was is not who I am. For I was fearfully and wonderfully made by Him.

"And we know that in all things, God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose." – Romans 8:28