Winters Night

~ Chapter Three ~

"I was adopted, my parents never wanted me, that's why they names me Zilla, it means shadows and gloom in hebrew. I remember the day I was adopted, its was a cold day and since I was 13 no one wanted me. They all wanted the younger kids, by that time I have been living there for 4 years hoping to get adopted. I remember when the head lady ran in and screamed in delight telling me I had been adopted. I didn't believe her so I just stood there in shock, the day the family came I was so scared to hope but I did, I packed everything and when I was called out I took a deep breath and smiled and walked out with my bags. I will never forget the smile on their faces. They were amazing and I didn't think it was possible but their smiles grew when they saw me. I found someone who wanted me. They introduced themselves as Lisa and Andrew. When I went home with them I saw the room they made and it was made just for me, everything I loved was in there. Andrew taught me how to ride, to build and Lisa taught me to cook. We had karoeke nights, and game nights and dinners where we would take turns cooking. At least twice a week we had burnt food" A laugh came out of me, through the tears down my face, Bohdi just listened, he didn't say anything so I kept talking.

"Three years later was the crash. We were driving home for a road trip, we were 10 minutes from home, just 10. A drunk driver came out of nowhere and slammed into our car, I remember my parents screaming. I can never unhear it. You always ask what my nightmare are of, its their screams. That's all I remember, when I woke up there were sounds everywhere, cars coming to a stop to help, I crawl out of the wreckage, my hands were cut and bleeding and they hurt but I knew I needed to get out. When i crawled out I saw people dragging my parents out, I knew in their faces they were gone, I was screaming, screaming and crying. When I couldn't anymore I collapsed, the next thing I knew I was in an ambulance. I dont remember much of my time in hospital, thats when I gave up. I thought this world gave up on me, when I finally had a family who loves me so much, the universe took them in the most horrible way. So yeah thats how it happened" Bohdi still didnt say anything as he crawled towards me and wrapped his hands around me, tears dripping from his eyes.

"I am so sorry" he said. We sat there for a while, it could be minutes or hours but we just sat there. He told me he loved me and I couldn't tell when those sad tears turned to happy ones. When I look at my own chest the weight had been lifted, for the first time in a very long time the shattered pieces of my heart were slowly coming together. I smiled, Bohdi was the one, I knew that. He has stoof by me through everything. It hit me hard, his love in this moment. I had laid myself bare to him, told him everything, told him things. He treated me so well, even during those times I've yelled and cried and hurt him. He never left. He is the one. I know he is. I want to marry this kid.

"I love you, not love is not strong enough, there is no word for how much I care, you have always been with me, I want to spend my life with you" I say running my hands through his hair. My t-shirt is wet with his tears.