Obsession or Love

Hello friend

There it is again. A never ending need to fill a deep black void that resembles my emotional state. It's empty and dark. Full of boredom and anger.

It's a lovely night here in Carmel Indiana. Everything is always calm here. After all it's one of the safest cities to live in. That bores me to death, as everything does. I am a kind of person that needs to be constantly stimulated. A need to fix my inevitable boredom is always here, and the ways that I fix it are atrocious.

It's almost 9:00 PM, a time when Ellie routinely goes to a late night run. That's one of the ways how I kill boredom for a short amount of time. I'm getting closer to my window so I can watch when she comes out. There I see her, in her sports clothes, getting out of her parents house. I immediately grab my black hoodie and head out. I follow her for quite a bit of time, waiting for her to take a break from running. She sits on a chair near a park, never thinking whether or not someone's following her. That isn't fearlessness, rather a false hope of security and safety because of the city's ratings. While I'm watching her how pretty she looks like in her sports bra, my mind keeps telling me

It's night time. Everyone is asleep and this is your chance to experience something you never did before. Approach her and use your otherworldly charm to lure her away into darkness with you. Afterwards, kill her and hide her body somewhere in Cool Creek.

I never listen to my thoughts in order to avoid prosecution and jail. But this time it's different. This time it got the best of me.

Without any nervousness, it took full control of me and I slowly started to walk towards her. Whilst approaching she noticed me and smiled in a way of calling me. The closer I get to her, the more I want to do everything to her.

"Hello, I didn't know you like to run" Beck says.

"Hi Ellie, well I usually take a different route but this time I wanted to change it up a little. What are you doing here all alone?"

As I was saying that I went to sit beside her, remaining the intensive eye contact.

"I got tired and I'm resting before I continue"

"Oh okay. What do you say we play a game to kill some time?"

"Game?"

She is clearly in a befuddled state, can't even analyse the whole situation. After all she's only thirteen.

"It's a roll the dice game. You choose whether the dice will land lower than 3 or higher than 3. If you lose you need to do anything I say and vice versa."

"Ok why not"

She got trapped in my game, if I win I can make her go to the darkness with me. I got the dice out of my pocket and with a smile I asked her

"Lower or higher?"

Ellie, without hesitation said

"Lower"

I rolled the dice, wanting it to land on higher, but it landed on 3. What a luck.

"Does this mean no one won?" asked Ellie.

By my rules, it sure does mean that. However, I can't afford to give up now so I lied and told her

"This means I need to roll the dice again"

After rolling the dice a second time, it landed on 4. She clearly saw how my general expression changed. I unknowingly smirked in a twisted way.

I was about to ask her to go with me, but she leaned towards me, put her hand on my chest and maintained eye contact.

This changed my mind and I was about to risk everything. I unzipped my pants and with my eyes I showed her what she needed to do.

We weren't talking at all, it was pure body language, yet she understood everything. She ties her hair up and goes down on me. Good thing is that I didn't see anyone in the park or nearby.

The way she's doing it shows me that this isn't her first time. She likes older guys.

Fuck, I'm close to finishing and my need to kill is over.

As I was thinking that she kept going faster and faster, almost as if she knew I was close. I put my hand on her head and pushed as hard as possible to show her who owns her now, and then came. Without any hesitation she swallowed and said

"I'll see you tomorrow, same time, your place."

She got up and started to slowly run while turning her head back to take a glance at me.

I still couldn't believe what had happened. I didn't want this, only outcome for these kinds of situations is jail. However, my intelligence is way beyond everyone else's and I'll think of a way to hide this.

I zipped my pants up and went back to my house, I got to wake up early for work.