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Chapter 25: "training"

It has been a couple weeks since we came back from time travel, neither of us talked a lot now, it was weird, Julia didn't talked to me, and I didn't talked to her, not much anyway. During the nights we both had nightmares, but was totally random on who woke up on the worst moment of the nightmare, and who woke up before it got bad, we comforted each other, but we didn't talked during the day.

We both knew that this couldn't go on, we needed to get over this. I never let my feelings out, so I never dealt with them. I had nightmares before, but I wouldn't cry, not much anyway. All I did was let out shaky breaths, some tears, and then went to the gym to train and let the pain rolled down my back. it never mattered what time it was, I needed to, now I can't escape my feelings, we do have a gym, but I normally woke up before Julia, so I comforted her, letting my feelings disappear, ignoring them.

When I woke up from a nightmare and Julia comforted me, it was because she couldn't sleep, I told her I needed to let this slide off, but she wouldn't let me go the gym, she made me stay in bed and confront my feelings, I hated her for that, but she still insisted, and I still comforted her.

We planted plants on the yard, so we didn't needed to go to stores or anything, it was the same every day. But Today that had to stop, I needed to go back to be strong, not week, hide my feelings, hide what I felt, train every day, I needed to go back to ignore what happened with me, and focus on helping others.

- hey, Julia, I was thinking of going back to training, do you want to come with me? - I asked her. She looked at me confused

- you think I need training? - she asked, I made a mistake

- no, of course not, it's just that, there's not much to do here, and I wanted to train, it helps me relax, and... I thought we could do it together? - I asked her again

- I'm just joking with you, I'll come and watch you, because I hate exercising - she confessed

- I'll take it, I'll just go change real quick and, we meet downstairs? - I asked her, smiling that she agreed to come with me

- yeah, I'll see you downstairs - she agreed.

It was obvious that nothing in my closet fitted me, so I went to Lena's room, and nothing will really fit me, properly but it was definitely better than my clothes. I changed into a sports top, because Lena didn't had a leotard, I'm hating her for that right now. Some leggins, I normally don't wear a sports shirt because I'm used to training in a leotard and tops thanks to the Red Room, but I wore one today, just because of Julia.

I went downstairs and saw Julia there.

- ready? - she asked

- yes, I'm so ready to go back to training - I told her, I put my hand in the scanner and went down the basement. and you guessed right, we do have more than one floor here. we went 3 floors down and the whole level here was a gym, there was a dance room, a ring, punch bags, everything you could think about.

- how are you going to start? - Julia asked

- I always start with some ballet, it's a good way to start - I told her, we went inside the dance room, and I noticed that there was a wall with every size of pointe shoes, Lena and Tasha knew that they wouldn't change sizes, but I'm still growing, and the pointe shoe, needed to fit perfectly. I went to the wall, and took a pair that looked like it would fit, it did perfectly, but I still needed to break them first. I took them out and started hitting them until they finally broke. I put them on and tied the strings.

I ordered Chris to put on some music and went to grabed a blindfold, then went over the bar.

- hey, can you help me put it on, please? - I asked her. I didn't really needed help, but it's an excuse for Julia to get close to me

- sure...? - she said, she came over and grabbed it, she put it around my eyes and made a knot, but it was pretty loose

- can you put it more tightly? - i asked

- sure, is that okay? - she asked, it was perfect

- yes, it's perfect, thanks - I told her, you couldn't see anything with the blindfold, I grabbed the bar with both my hands, but I didn't hold into it too much, I started doing some exercises to stretch.

- why do you use the blindfold? aren't you scared you fall and break something? - Julia asked once I started doing some pirouettes and started to prepare for fouettes.

- don't worry, I won't fall - I told her

- you can't know that - she said

- I haven't fell since I'm 3, don't worry - I told her

- you didn't answered, why you used the blindfold? -

- I have been using it since I was about 3 -

- why? -

- they made me use it - I told her, doing 3 pirouettes

- what do you mean? -

- I had to wear it, I got used to it -

She stayed quiet after that, 2 songs later, I was ready to start dancing on floor

- are you actually going to dance, in pointe shoes, on the floor, with a blindfold? - Julia asked

- don't worry I've done this a million times - I told her

- I thought that while doing ballet, dancers didn't used shirts - she said

- well, I didn't had a leotard, and it's always weird dancing on top in front of someone for the first time - I told her

- don't worry, if you want to take the shirt off you can - she said

- are you sure? - I asked her

- yeah, it's fine -

- okay - i said

- can you guide me please to a bench, to let my shirt there? - I asked

- don't worry, I got it - she said, I could feel her getting closer to me. I took off my shirt and extended my arm a little, she took the shirt

- thanks - I said

- no problem - she answered.

----- hey guys, I think that from here I'm gonna do a last chapter in the house in Ohio, then write some stuff from my memory from no way home, then do a little resume of the role of Bells in No way home, and then hawkeye, I hope you all have a good day!!! -----