✅️Grey's Anatomy x reader book

Derek - Love Trauma

Request from @a-woman-with-claws-and-fangs on Tumblr. The reader's father side of the family has a history of brain trauma and the reader gets headaches. She fears about telling Derek thinking he won't be able to help. Meredith and Christina decide to help the reader tell Derek.

Listen to "If I Didn't Have You" by Thompson Square while reading :)

Exiting the surgery room I slide down to the floor in my srubs hoping this sickness of headaches and wanting to throw up will go away. Meredith had to take over because I fell into Christina and nearly injured a patient open on the table. It's the third time this week that I failed to complete a surgery. Pulling my knees to my chest I start sniffing tears wishing I didn't have to deal with my father's medical issues. My father's side of the family has had a repeated history of aggressive brain tumors. When I was growing up I didn't start having spells until I was 17 years old, I'd just hoped it wasn't passed down to me. Unfortunately I got carried over the gen that really effects my job as a doctor.

Hours later I'm much better after getting something to eat and drink to where Meredith comes up to me carrying her lunch tray. "Y/n, why don't you get Derek to check you out?" I just takes sip of my drink not wanting to talk about it. I'd been dating the famous brain surgeon Derek Shepherd for 3 years now but we've never said the words I love you to each other. "You know he'll be willing to help you out." I get to my feet brushing her off with an annoyed look on my face. "I'm not asking him Mer!" The reason I'm afraid to ask my boyfriend for help is because I don't think he could do anything. My father has went to several doctors who thought they could fix his problems but all failed. There's even been some people on my father's side of the family that have died on the operating table when the doctor tried to remove the tumor.

Knowing how Derek is with his loving to save lives. He'd never forgive himself if something happened to me, if I died because of something he did. Therefore he can never know of my condition. Christina comes to me right before I'm about to go into my next surgery, clearly Meredith talked with her earlier. "So you know I'm not good with the whole feeling thing. But I am worried about you Y/n. You have a reputation to maintain and you don't want to get yourself or someone else injured because you didn't get your brain help." Whipping my head around at her really fast I snapped off wanting my friends to just drop the conversation.

"Just drop it alright, you and Meredith aren't changing my mind. Derek doesn't need to know  - Der - ah!" Pain shoots through my head and I sway on my feet seeing Derek standing near us. Christina reaches out to steady me but my vision blurs with my legs giving out from under me. Somehow my body doesn't hit the tile floor instead familiar arms hold me up. "Gosh Y/n what aren't you telling me?" Derek's voice asked me laced with high amounts of worry. My head falls against his chest, eyes nearly closing. My hands weakly clutching his white coat terrified I won't get to tell him before I die. "I love you - Derek Shepherd..." After those words my eyes closed and everything is black.

A heart monitor beeping meets my ears as I open my eyes sleepingly like I've been under anstsha. Looking to my left hand I see an IV to which I reach up to brush hair from my ear but feel a bandage up there. What the hell happened. Someone clears their throat from the chair pulled up at my bedside for me to see Derek holding a medical chart in his hands. "Der...what happened?" I croaked out with a dry throat now fully awake yet. He flips through some pages holding back a smile with the news he gives me. "You shouldn't have lied to me sweetheart. On what planet did you think I wouldn't be able to help your trauma. I'm your boyfriend you can tell me anything-" I cut him off shifting and feeling some pain in my head but not as bad as it used to be. "I could die on the operating table that's why I didn't tell you. I didn't want you to lose me, because you tried to fix my father's side of the family problems!"

"Y/n, settle down you didn't die on the table." He interrupted me cupping my face in his hands finally getting me to look into his eyes. "Wh - what. I'm not dead?" I stuttered in disbelief thinking this is all a dream. Derek wiped away some tears showing me his notes on that chart he had. "When you collapsed Meredith and Christina told me everything so we rushed you to get a scan. I discovered your father's history and found the tumor in you. Luckily it was small enough to get out, so I'm saying I got it all." Tears fall down my face I released a sigh of relief hugging him excitedly. "Thank you, thank you....I'm sorry I didn't tell you - I'm sorry..." He hugs me back feeling tears stain his shirt smiling at me, whispering in my ear. "I discovered something earlier today about you miss L/n." Tilting my head up at him I asked curious with a smile. "What's that Dr. Shepherd?" He pulls me in for a kiss mumbling. "I love you too." I pulled him back for another kiss unknown to the two of us Christian chers in the hallway. "Victory dance!" So her and Meredith danced away at getting us together.

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