wandanat Oneshots

💙- I'm here for you, always.

gxg

mother!daughter/best friends

Nat:35
Wanda:17

Tw⚠️: flashback, death, abuse, selfharming

Wanda pov.

I'm in college and I am 17 in my first year but I have struggled with my mental health since I was around 12 after being put into the foster system.
My parents and brother died when I was 10. After being put into an orphanage in Sokovia I was signed up for a program that sends children to the US to give them a better life and my care worker said 'it was a good change and that I would love it there' but I was still grieving my family and was suffering. When I first moved I only knew a little English and spoke mainly Sokovian so I found it hard to communicate.
It was better than the orphanage but I got moved around a lot and most people just foster kids for the money. I was never hit or beaten that badly but I was ignored all the time and the families with other children it was obvious that they didn't want me around and was only using me. By the time I was 15, I had lost count of my previous foster homes all of which I was greatful for as I knew some kids weren't so lucky but as time went on my mental health got bad I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety I also self harmed to cope with the constant changes and other things in my life.

So here I am in college choosing my subjects for this semester. I had chosen not to take maths but I took English and a few other classes but I had to take a different language to pass this year and I chose russian wanting to get back into touch with my roots. I knew I had an advantage as I was fluent so I had an easy pass.

I selected option and I got an email from ms Romanoff explaing what was on the course and what was required as well as that we had to take an entrance exam so she could tell our levels as it was a hard class and she wanted the brightest students in her class which made sense. I replied and she emailed the exam over that was 15 questions long saying she would mark it and get back to me.

We had to translate basic comprehension words and then write sentences about ourselves in Russian. I was done in 15 minutes and emailed it back. That's when I heard the dorm room door open and a girl walked in she was blonde and dressed in a flannel ripped jeans and doc martens "Hi I'm carol and I use she/her pronouns it's Wanda right?" "Yea, it is nice to meet you as well I use she/they pronouns. I hope you don't mind I took this bed but I can move if you want?" " No you're good there I can take this bed" she called as she jumped onto her bed and started unpacking her books. She seemed nice. I noticed Ms. Romanoff had responded congratulating me as I had got in and asked me if I would like to stay behind after tomorrows lesson to explain why I know so much russian. I emailed her back saying yes and printed my timetable off and pinned it on my wall as it was now filled in properly. Carol came over and looked "oh cool we have English and art class together!" she exclaimed "Oh your taking russian?" She asked surprised " I'm taking french instead, but good choice I heard that it's a hard class to get into?" "oh well I'm fluent in Russian and thought it would be an easy A" I explained making conversation. " Thats cool! I'm going to the shop to get some groceries want anything?" "No thanks I already have some" I said turning back to my laptop. " Okay see you later" Carol called as she walked out the door.

When carol got back she put the stuff she had brought away and showered. " I'm going to go to bed tho as I'm tired after moving all my books and shit see you tomorrow!" And she went to bed.

I went to take a shower and suddenly everything that had happened today hit me as I realized that I was meant to be experiencing this with my brother and parents and that I never could. I cried in the shower and everything got to much so

‼️I got my razor and cut my wrists they still hadn't fully healed from last time so I opened the old cuts as well the scars on my wrist overlapping there were to many to count now. The feeling of my skin breaking and the blood rushing out helped and I felt better.‼️