I built my walls up so high
That even I can't climb over them
I've tried many times before
But I'm just not strong enough
I can't let people in
I can't find my lost smile
People ask me if I'm okay
But I've been like this for awhile
In this hole
In this pit
Struggling to get out
But never succeeding
I always fall and get hurt again
So I stopped trying
If people want me they'll have to climb
Climb over these walls made of cement
Climb through my mind, no matter how dark it gets
Find my heart and break though
The locks and chains that were placed after you
If it's friendship you want
Don't even try
I push people away
Even if I want them to stay
I block out everyone
I live by myself
Not physically,
But in my mind
I sleep on this cold floor
Thrashing from my own thoughts
Hurting myself in every way possible
Banging my head
Cutting my wrists
Is there more to life than this?
I think not
I'm not a princess
I'm not a model
No ones going to climb over my walls
They're too high
So I'll lay here
With my blood pooling around me
Looking up at the black sky
Waiting for a warrior who will never show up
I'm perfectly unlovable
And I'm okay with that.
