Y/n PoV
"I just wish... I could be more like the version of myself you love so much."
Hearing him say this makes me feel bad almost.
Do I make him hate himself? Do I give him the impression that he's something needing to be fixed or changed?
"Kooks..." I pause for a moment, making sure I plan out my words carefully. "The version of yourself right now, is the one I'm in love with. This one."
"Yes. You are in need of a few improvements. But so is everybody, myself included."
"Didn't I once tell you, that I'm in love with all your parts. Best and broken?"
"Those are just meaningless words that come out of your mouth when you feel sorry for me though." He tuts, and I respond by cupping hold of his face.
"My darling it pains me that you believe such a thing. Because every word I've ever told you is the truth. It always will be."
"I'm never gonna be what you want though Y/n." He removes my hands, forcing them onto my lap.
"I'm never not gonna be broken. It's too late to try and mould me into the perfect shape. This is it. This is all I'm ever gonna be."
"What? Afraid?" I question. "Angry? Stressed? Confused?"
"We're all like that Jungkook. Don't you see? You're just like every other person in this world. Your problems just involve a different back story and I knew of this from the first moment I said I love you. I knew you weren't gonna be this unbothered being. I knew this because no one could go through what you have and be un-phased by it all."
"It's the trauma and emotions you express to me now, that make you human. And how could I ever wish for all of that to go away? How could I wish for you to just disregard your humanity like that?"
"I love you with every fibre of my being Jeon Jungkook. So don't you ever tell me you'll never be the person I want you to be, because that's like telling me I'm in love with someone who doesn't even exist."
His eyes just look at me in shock. I've just unloaded one massive truth bomb on him, but clearly he needed to hear it.
Slowly I lean closer to him, my lips just a few inches from his. He remains still. So I take it upon myself to close the space fully.
It hurts when he doesn't kiss back, but I refuse to give up. I softly peck his lips once or twice, before fully kissing him again.
A last his hands push against the small of my back which causes me to grind against him slightly. His lips are so soft that I can't help but suck on them slightly, the soft smacking sounds catching our ears. I'm getting a little hot but it feels too god to stop.
He exhales a breath before sliding his hands up my back. It sends my skin to rush with goosebumps but I love it. "Don't be afraid to touch me." I say when noticing him hesitating a little.
He pulls away from the kiss to look at me. "I'd actually like to stop."
"Why?"
"You know why."
I hesitate for a moment before climbing off of him. "Sorry..was I getting too ahead of myself?"
