your new boyfriend || wilbur soot angst

nightmares

Tw// talk of suicidal thoughts and mentions of self harm

That night wilbur got no sleep. He tried so hard to stop thinking but you can't just turn it off like a switch. His dreams weren't the usual reccouring ones he has instead of his parents telling him how useless he was because he couldn't keep a girlfriend and that he was dumb for not seeing the signs along with his ex telling him he's not enough for anyone and that he deserves every bit of pain he gives himself as punishment for the stupidity of letting someone in and telling them about his thinking habits like she wanted to help but she obviously didn't otherwise she wouldn't have went off with a new guy. She usually tells him that if anyone on the smp like Phil or techno knew they'd think he's too weak and they don't want to be friends with a weakling like him. That tubbo and tommy are stronger than him and they were teenagers. She'd say how weak he was for opening up and telling her about his mental health and suicidal thoughts.

Instead it was tubbo at first telling him how he'd went to far with one of his jokes with tears streaming down his face, his eyes red rimmed and puffy, snot dripping down from his nose mixed with his tears, sobbing  hard. So hard infact that he couldn't breathe and collapsed on the floor. Tommy appeared and check on him he slowly got up, anger drawn on his face as he starts shouting at wilbur telling him he's useless and he doesn't deserve him,tubbo or anyone on the smp. Tubbo was still curled up in a ball sobbing on his side. Wilbur decided to go and apologise but techno got infront of him telling him how terrible a person he was for making a teenager sob for hours. After a while niki and Phil joined him. The look on niki's face was full of disappointment and anger towards wilbur. Philza face just looked drained of all emotion as he told wilbur that he can't speak to him or anyone on the smp anymore because he'd been lying and upsetting everyone with his 'stupid problems'. And that's when he woke up.

He woke up at 4:30pm. He looked at the alarm clock and sighed he should have been up a long time ago yo not raise suspicion. He looked at his phone to see no notifications even though everyone else was online. He thinks that everyone must have forgotten about him or just didn't want to talk to him. When it was the opposite they were in a vc together because they were worried about wilbur and it was tubbo and tommy who started the call listing the reasons that they were worried about wilbur. As it seemed they weren't the only ones worried about his wellbeing...