you wanted me back
you wanted a second chance
i gave it to you .
i always craved
that validation
the attention .
i accepted it greatfully
but you brought things back with you
insecurity
self loathing
and all of the above .
i was fooled
into thinking you had changed
when you only had gotten better at hiding .
starting over with you
was equivalent
to getting stabbed .
in the blink of an eye
you were angry
and mean
for no reason at all .
for the first time
you put your hands on me
and left a bruise
more so on my heart
than my fragile skin .
alcohol was your best friend now
and i was a nuisance
why ?
you wanted me back first
so why am i
the only one
chasing .
why do i want you
after how badly
you have damaged me .
you diminished my sunshine
and replaced it
with a craving
for you to love me .
