Dear one who got away is what I wrote at the beginning of the letter I was gonna send to you until I realized that I have no idea where you are. A letter would have been too little anyways because I need to fully express how I feel inside. So I decided to write a book explaining everything in hopes that it will be the best selling and you would somehow see it as you love reading books...yeah I know crazy right, but that's how much I love you and I want you to know that. I should have let you know that from the beginning instead I let my ego and my pride get in the way of our love. If I had let it be known from the beginning that you were mine and I love you, then this would have never happened.
At first I blamed him for doing this to us but I have realized that I only have myself to blame and nobody else. I lied to you, I lied to my friends but most of all...I lied to myself. I have been going to therapy to help deal with my past because my past has made me this monster that I now despise. I thought that therapy would help me accept that you are gone and gone forever but it is not...my heart just won't let go. You were all that I needed and I should have had the courage to tell you all of these things...to tell you that I love you.
Now one thing I can say therapy helped me with is expressing how I really feel because a year ago, the words I love you would have never come out of my mouth...I mean I have never even told my own mother that I love her. I hope that after reading this book you will understand that hurting you was never my intention, tearing your heart apart was never part of the plan. I am truly sorry my love, I grew up in a house where women were never respected so breaking hearts was my profession, it was the only thing I knew and perfected but that is no excuse. I know that I should have done better by you but understand that I did not plan on falling in love with you, in my head you were just another one of the women I played.
I fell in love with you and I did not know what to do because I have never loved in my life, I do not even have enough love for my own family that I have not seen in over eight years. My heart was a wall made of stone and nobody could crack that stone wall...but you demolished the whole wall and I just did not know how to react to that. I did not know if I liked having you in my heart because to me being vulnerable with anyone was danger because I did not want my heart broken, I would rather break hearts than have my own heart broken. You had my heart and I was scared of that...you still have my heart and I am still scared of that because I don't know if I could ever love another the way I love you.
All I wanna do is just look in your eyes and tell you that I really really really really love you and I wanna be with you and only you...and that I am sorry for all the pain that I caused you. Dear one who got away...you are my world.
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DEAR ONE WHO GOT AWAY
RomanceSharon who has had a heart broken terribly by two men cannot move on with her life because of her exes. So when she comes across her exe's book that is about her...she decides to read it so that she can gain closure on what really happened and why h...