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Hate me

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by BBBlondey

by BBBlondey

⚠️⚠️⚠️ TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️ ⚠️⚠️

This contains thoughts about wanting to be hurt. It also contains dialogue that may be disturbing.

I normally don't write things like this, but it was all I was feeling.

Also ⚠️Disclaimer⚠️ this is not in a sexual way at all. That is not what love is to me. This is pure Hate. And it's terrible.

I want to be hated by people.

I want them to scream at me

and throw me against walls.

I need to be black, blue, and bleeding.

I want scars littering my body.

Scars that twist and turn and climb up my figure.

I want to be hurting.

Not because I like it, because I hate it.

Whip me

Beat me

Tell me I'm worthless

Bruise my body

Brake my bones

Burn my skin

Rip me apart piece by piece

And take your time in doing it

I want to feel

Every second of pain

I want to feel

Every drop of blood leave my body

I'm worthless

I AM WORTHLESS

I want to dance with the man

With the man who grins

His sinister grin

Because he knows something

What does he know

I want to feel blades on my skin

Cut me

Let my bleed

In sheer agony

Let all the people watch

They'll be so annoyed with me

Tell me to shut up

Tell me I'm

Overreacting

My emotions don't matter

They get in the way

The way of you

I'm sorry

I hate that you hate me

And you're so passive aggressive

BEAT ME

it's what they want to do

They want to do terrible things

But they won't

It's funny

The difference between a murderer

And a regular person

S e l f c o n t r o l

Some people want to be loved

Some people want to be famous

Some people want to be rich

I crave to suffer

Hate me

Destroy me

Snap me in half

Rip me apart

Make want to die

So I can feel

What it's like

To miss living

I am selfish

I don't want anyone to hate me

I just want them to tell the truth

My truth is

I hate myself

So I don't understand

Why someone people say they

L o v e m e

Why

I don't think I love anyone

Not truly

I am a lair

I am terrible

I should be hated

So hate me

But please

Tell me what it's like

L o v e